Fear going back to work

I have been out of work since April. My Short term Disability was through the 16th. I believe the Sacroilitis is much better. I have been seeing a chiropractor to help get my pelvis and lower spine straightened out and fix the 1/2 in. leg length difference. I can tell a BIG difference, the pain in my Butt is reduced to minimum levels. So what he is doing is working.

I did return to work in June and that only lasted 5 days and I was back out again. Now I am afraid...I asked for water therapy to help strengthen my muscles...(I work for Toyota, Building V-8 engines). My job is VERY physical. That was a week ago and still have not received the call from the PT to start. Now I am trying to decide if I should just go back to work on Monday and forgo the PT and see if I hold up. I can save the PT for if I wind up going back out again.

I am afraid to fail. (AGAIN) My husband says not to go back until I have PT...But my insurance only covers so much of that and I need to save what I have maybe for if I have to go back out again.

So would you go back or would you get the PT?

I think I would do the therapy first. I went back to work to soon and came out again last year and am on my long term disability now.

My back side is feeling much better... still have some issues but nothing near what I was dealing with... and I keep getting those injections... my problem now is my feet, knees and upper back. If I stand too long.., About 30 min. I have to sit back down... My feet and back hurt bad... I have swelling on the outside of the ankle that I have been trying to get something diagnosed with that... the swelling is at the ankle bone and the pain goes from their up the back of my leg and all over the bottoms of my feet and hot spots at the middle toes area... I am being sent for a nerve conduction test...and the bladder issues... Migraines... uggh.

I know I will never be 100% But at what point will I be able to function... My feet and knees have to be dealt with. If not I know I wont last a day. I am trying to be more active and stay on my feet as long as I can but it seems that 30 min. is the max before I sit back down.

I am just stressing this whole thing...My job requires you be 100% when you come back... again I will never be 100% like I was years ago... I guess I have to find a new 100% for me.

I am thinking that if I cannot get it together I may have to do long term as well... But not their yet.

Hi. I'm jumping in here a little late. Are you still off work? Did you improve enough to go back? You mentioned possibly having to do long term disability. Please make sure you read the plan descriptions for both you STD and LTD plans to see what is required to transition from one to the other. Also read closely what your LTD plan covers, how long it will stay in place or if there is a "change in definition" of disability based on your job description vs "any job" you could possibly perform. LTD plans can have that change part of the way into those benefits.

Your fear is telling plenty , trust your instincts and go with that . Physical means pain and payback so do what you think is right .Try not to over think it and don't logic the situation , just do what your gut tells you .