Having a Bad Day...Over and Over Again

Hi all...I am having such a bad day here, I need to just vent a little to let it out. First of all, I was diagnosed a couple months ago with fibro, but lately it's taken a back seat to everything else going on. My common-law partner and I are having troubles, I even asked him to leave at one point, but let him come back two days later. He is my soulmate, and he loves me, and I realized that I can't throw 12 years out the window without at least trying. And things are a bit better there now, other than he and my daughter don't like each other. *sigh* My doctor decided that since I'm now over 50, I should have a mammogram. Fine, I was so nervous about having it done, cause we've all heard how much they squeeze and hurt. But once it was over, I put it out of my mind. I wasn't worried at all about the results. Then last week, I had one of my fingers lock in a bent position. That was 5 days ago, it's still locked. Doctor is sending me to a specialist, figures it's trigger finger. Hurts like hell and difficult to do a lot of things. So this morning my phone rings, it's the doctor's office. She said we have an appointment for you upstairs. I was expecting her to call with my specialist's appointment, but upstairs? That's where I had the mammogram done....No, not the specialist she says, this is an ultrasound. For what, I ask? Because they found something on the mammogram! Geez I feel like I'm getting kicked repeatedly without a chance to get on my feet to fight back between kicks. Just not sure how to get through the rest of the day without losing what sanity I have left. How does everyone else handle it, when it feels like everything is going wrong? I have tried counting my blessings, but even then I have trouble finding them. Any advice for getting through the rough spots?

hi Jan.. I know that it is very nerve racking to be callled back after doing the mammogram. I have been called back most years to have the sonogram as well. I was told that i have dense breasts and often they just cant get a good view. This could be in your case as well. I will tell you to try to be calm but i was not that calm either till it was over and they told me things were fine. I will keep you in my prayers and positive thoughts. This is all i can comment on at the moment as we are waiting for the cable people to come for some issues there. all the best! HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS

Suzie

Hi Janmac, I am so sorry you are going thru this, it sounds like things have been tough for you. A few months ago I had a big scare as well. My ophthalmologist was concerned I might have MS or tumors on the optic nerves due to some testing I had done. She ordered a STAT MRI of my brain. Those few days between the phone call and the test and then results were very terrifying. One thing that did help me a little was to try to focus on other things. You mentioned you have a daughter, can you try to do something with her to help pass the time / calm the nerves? I know I spent extra time with my 10 year old during that waiting period and it did help some to keep my mind off of it. I am thinking positive thoughts for you and please keep us updated on how you are doing. HUGS!!!!!

Sending you hugs. I had a similar situation. During the routine tests in preparation for shoulder surgery, they found some anomalies on my EKG. That almost made me have a heart attack I was so worried. I have now met with the Cardiologist and have had the stress tests, and realize that it is better to find something now and deal with it that have a very nasty surprise later. I don't have my results yet, but I will deal with it when they come, because that is the only option really. I hope all turns out all right for you, and I can understand how scared you might be. Sending you hugs to let you know you are not alone and we are here for future vents and hugs when you need them.

Hello,

I am so sorry you are having a difficult time. It sounds like there are multiple factors that are contributing to your stress. I can relate to the daily difficulty that this diagnosis and symptoms causes. I don't really have any advice on how to make it better because I don't know why sometimes it is good and why sometimes it turns bad. I do however have support, encouragement and a friendly ear to lend if you need to chat. I have had good days and bad and it sometimes helps to remember how a good day feels and that you WILL get back there. It's like a rollercoaster. This website is a great place to help turn those downs into ups. I know it has helped me greatly.

Hope to talk to you soon,

Sara

Hi Janmac,

I have been away from here for approx 4 weeks due to internet issues. My husband accidentally cut the internet cable in the garage. It has been fixed temporarily and will be fixed for good tomorrow. But between some extra stress and weather I too have been having slot of bad days. So I can feel and understand what you are going thru. But you definitely have a couple of extra things you are dealing with. You finger and your mammogram. I am so sorry for what you are going thru. The only thing I know to do for you is to pray about all of the issues you are dealing with. So know that I will be praying daily for you until each of your issues are resolved. Please keep us up to date on what's going on and how you are doing.

Thank you.

Jackie (Donna)

Stay positive, and stay strong! Things can be rough, but there is always a light to brighten the day.