Me too. Just the utter devastation that comes with the realization that this is my new life. 
_I’m in the “Hurt all the time” stage, and the “Really sick of it” stage._And the “Mourning for my lost life” stage, the "I feel guilty for being such a big, fat burden) stage, and the “It would be better for everyone if I wasn’t here” stage… 
I believe I go through different stages at different times. I have been to the acceptance stage and go back to the fight and frustration stages. usually when a new symptom emerges I want to get rid of this. but ultimately I know I can’t. my life will never be what it was and I think accepting yourself for who you are at this point in your life is the best place to be. I won’t give up hope that they’ll come out with something that works. but I refuse to be drugged up on hard drugs to kill pain. my pain is the least of my problems anymore anyhow. the tired, bathroom trips constantly, dizziness, etc. is getting to me more than the actual pain. not that I don’t hurt. I have had fibro for ten years about. it does get worse. I don’t care what any doctor says. I have a 9 year old and a husband that don’t understand me. other people tell me to walk like it’ll fix it. my husband even told me to walk it off when I was having extreme dizzy spells. he said my equilibrium would fix itself. so I get frustration more from other people than I do from the illness if that makes any sense. I still fight it. I will always fight to do my best and that’s all I can do.
I’ve had this “junk” for over 30 years and was just diagnosed about 7 years ago. So yes, finally, relief.
I’ve gone through all of the stages of this journey. I’m in the acceptance mode but still angry. I think this is a healthy anger. It keeps us fighting and keeps us from giving in. Knowledge is freedom. It gives us the tools to try to understand our symptoms. I don’t talk about Fibro with people that can’t or choose not to understand. It’s hard enough dealing this all by itself!!
I’m lucky. I have a wonderful support system in my family. My husband is amazing. He makes me rest when he “thinks” I’m overdoing it. But he never lets me sink into self pity. We have several Harleys with side cars and gets me out riding when I get low. I’m am very glad I found this support group. Even though my family is supportive they can’t totally understand. All journies are different. Peace be with you on yours☺️
I’ve been a long time suffered. Was dx about 20 years ago. Visited a rheumatologist last year that said I was in the advanced stage. He said he would change nothing about my medical treatment.