Lately I have noticed I forgotten little things or spaced things out but yesterday really made me cry. Yesterday I called to pay a bill and the gentle asked me for my debit card number. Ok no problem because I know my debit card number by heart. But not yesterday, I couldn’t remember it to say my life. I was on my break at work and I asked this gentle if he could please hold while I got my while and he said sure no problem. He was impressed that I knew my debit card number by heart but for I just broke down in tears. I got some bad new last Friday and then to start forgetting all these little things. I got lost it. Thank you for letting vent.
It is obvious even from this posting that you are in a serious flare right now, as you have forgotten entire words or letters in sentences. I say this not to shame you but to comfort you. You are obviously feeling badly so need to be good to yourself. Take a break, rest if you can or sleep, better still. Get some deep, cleansing breaths if you can. Do not push yourself past your endurance point. And please find someone to talk to about the bad news, as it is obviously hurting you very much. You are a person with a serious illness, and you need to have people to talk to when you have difficulties. You need to be able to let go of this hurt some, or else your illness will continue to devil you like this.
You are not alone, Trea. Each one of us suffers with this serious illness and goes through things that make us wonder if we are losing it (we aren't.) Added stress can really boggle our minds, making us think that we just can't do things anymore when we can, with some rest or some calm.
For me it was remembering people's names. At first I was scared then angry at my disease. That in itself is stressful. Now I can laugh it off and say I'm having a senior moment. When I'm stressed I play music and start dancing. My kids start laughing and then all's right with the world again. Vent all you want, we're all in this together. Be well.