I’ve read alot in the last 20 days. 20 days because 20 days ago I got a name for my syndrome 20 days ago. I’ve read that they think a that possibly the reasons that fibromyalgia I guess wakes up in our body’s is. Any or all of these possible things could cause the onset of fibro. Traumatic experance, child abuse, serouse illness, injuries. I think that covers it, I have serouse fibro fog these days, so please forgive my terrible spelling.
So I try to think back to when I first started having symtoms. Well I can remember back as far as my second year of 1st grade having terrible head ack, and a tummy troubles. So we’re those symtoms or just head acksess and tummy troubles. That would put the cause at being molested regularly from the ages 4-6.
I can remember in high school having what I use to call baby heart attacks. Just a horrible pain in my chest thru to my back and down my arm. Like My heart was being squeezed and twisted. That would make being gang raped at a party with a date who was one of the rapist. Or was that anxiety?
Then there was the itchy burning skin, and the numb pins and needles feeling in arms and legs, that started soon after walking in on my husband at the time in bed with another women.
The pain in my what felt like my kidneys and the restless legs started after my car acsedent and abortion. Then after the emergency c section of my daughter where we both nearly died started up the IBS. But it seems like everything went crazy after confronting my father about my molestation. That’s when I started getting pains in muscles I didn’t know I had, and every previouse symtom became magnified. I started to have to wear depends, because my bladder got a mind of its own. Then finally I was told I had fibro.
So when did yours start I think mine started early at age 6 or 7 and just got worse with each devastating situation. I think my mind is punishing my body for being guilty. Because everyone one of these things I kept bottled up inside feeling guilty that it was my fault in some way. It’s like my brain found me guilty and my punishment is life imprisoned by pain, little to no sleep and no support with a syndrome that gets no sympathy. Sorry guys guess I got a little graphic. But what do you think brought on your on set?
Thanks kandi. Sorry about all your trauma. We are a lucky bunch hau? Wishing the best for you, and less pain too;)
Ah Cindi, your life has not been easy , I’m so sorry for all pain, both emotional and physical ! I do believe fibro can be activated by trauma… As so many have developed symptoms after a car accident. Personally my trauma was like many an accumulation of many emotional and physical events. A big one for me was walking in and finding my father dead on the floor, I arrived prob 20 min to late, as well as bowel infections and a life time of stress and emotional upset.
I Think our body just says enough is enough and can not function properly any longer !
Please try and find ways to let go of the guilt, many have said the same to me, perhaps we all just blame our self for far to much.
Lets make 2013 about letting go of our guilt, and find what makes us happy without worrying about what others think or say !!!
Hugs & blessings
I think mine started a little as a child. I had a parent who made me strive for perfection, and as we all know, that doesn't exist. That is when I started having leg pain.I think my parent was bipolar. Anyway, the major symptoms occurred much later when I was going through a very messy divorce. My ex was abusive in every form of the word. The trauma was severe and lingered on years after the divorce was over. Now, i have gotten over many of the issues he caused. Now, I get fibromyalgia.
I hate to say it but molestation can make the victim feel filled with guilt and shame, not the molester, just as you say. It's horrible, it's sad and it's wrong. You deserve to find some way to forgive yourself for having been little and innocent and in the path of a twisted person. The day that you do that, you can finally feel some level of relief from the shame and guilt. Shackles? Yes, yes, yes. For the wrong person. Can the shackles also become physical? Yes. Is that the cause of your fibro? I don't know but it surely sounds like there is a strong link for you.
I have read that a link has been found between molestation and fibro. Research has shown that people who suffered from abuse have shortened telemars, which, in turn causes earlier aging. It makes sense that if you've suffered from horrendous stress as a child (and, in your case, in other parts of your life as well) that the stress could really wreck your physical health. Stress kills people. Why can't it adversely affect us on a genetic level? Or through our central nervous system?
All I can say, Cindi, is that I'm horribly sorry that you went through the things you've experienced. I think it's extremely brave of you to acknowledge your experiences and how they probably are related to your fibro. We have had this conversation here before and quite a few other people experienced abuse or molestation as children. Sad, isn't it?
My fibro first started after a gym accident about 6 years ago. I hurt my back/SI joint area and thought nothing of it at the time, until it didn't get better and hurt worse and worse. Eventually my elbow and knee got involved after small accidents, and then the rest of my body got involved when I had a hard physical job that I worked many, many hours at, heart and soul. Did it start earlier in my life? I don't know. I did have a traumatic childhood though, so I don't discount a tie-in. In fact, I would be shocked if I WASN'T adversely impacted after it.
Hugs to you with true sympathy,
Petunia
I was severely Hyperthroid for many years, medication couldn't control it so I had two radioactive iodine treatments in six months. I started to notice changes after that. Then I got pesticide poisoning and after that my Fibromyalgia was full blown. My doctor had told me he suspected I had Fibromyalgia for a long time, but my Hyperthyroidism was masking it. So not sure... But the two radiation treatments and the pesticides I believe caused mine, my traumatic childhood probably didn't help either.