Ok there is the one thing I cannot stand about having fibromyalgia it is getting up in the morning it is a bad experience I feel like I am the size of a whale I can’t move and my back freezes and my head is heavyI wish that I could just wake up and get going like the quote unquote normal folks do but I can’t and it’s frustrating I’ll get calls in the morning and I just ignore them I can’t reach my phone or I’m just too darn tired to even try to think to have a conversation because I just can’t get up yet and all the while while I’m saying this I have this stupid smile on my face laughing at myself because in some respect I find it absolutely ridiculous I don’t know suppose I’ll just get dressed and force myself to go do something anything cuz that’s usually what I do I force myself to go do something to try to put myself out of the fog that I now find myself sitting inand the second part to this is going to bed, by the time I finally get loosened up it will be 1030 11 at night and then I hate having to go to sleep because finding sleep is somewhat difficult but I know in the morning it will start all over again it’s like a vicious circle but all I can do I suppose is just shake my head and press on. I just wish it wasnt so hard, for all of us in some ways its harder than others and I always try to remember that, someone out there is suffering worse than me someone out there there is a person fighting for their life or dying from cancer these are the thoughts that truly make me try, that even in my frustration keep me from feeling to sorry for myself and allow me to stay happy through it all, the fact that I am still very lucky, it hurts sure but my organs are not failing my life is not dying infront of me, Im not in the hospital fighting to have one more moment with my family, fms has given me thick skin thats for sure, and I still hate mornings but Im ok with life…be well friends and try to have a good day, I know im gonna slowly wobble to get dressed, then try to make it better than it always starts…
Wishing you many lovely days ahead, lady. You sound like one determined lady. All the best to you!
Thanks I appreciate that, sometimes it feels like im trying so hard with only the same result at the end im really glad I found this group I feel more connectef than I ever have in 26years with fms, I have always just gone through the emotions on my own, nice to know there are people supporting eachother