I have a question I hope someone has experienced or knows what may cause it.
First I was carrying in some groceries on my left arm 2 days ago. Last night and now again today, I have a pain the shoots down my left leg, almost like a pinched nerve. It's more annoying than anything but could carrying in groceries maybe caused it?
I have so much stress right now. I have had my van in for repair 3 times, first a fuel filter, then some kind of sensor for the fuel, and finally a fuel pump. All within the last month.I have been able to save some money back for taking the kids on a vacation, but now I had to get into that to pay the repair bills. I still need a water pump before we go...that is....if we go. It would have been our first vacation together..ever. I want to take them up to Duluth MN. I love it there and I know they are going to have fun. So now I am seriously penny pinching to still be able to go. I have had a constant headache for almost a week, one that you know is there, but just can't seem to shake it.
I am also looking at getting a 3 bedroom apt so the kids can have their own bedrooms. I am going to try to get them to drop the rent for another $10 for a 2 year lease. I hate moving, but my daughter is 13 and my son is almost 9. Their room is partitioned off with 2 sheets of 2 inch styrofoam wedged between the celing and floor. It works for now, but it won't much longer.
I also had to dip in the vacation money to pay my renters insurance, my car insurance is due next week and my tabs on the van in about 5 weeks, just before we are supposed to leave.
I feel like I am just sitting here complaining, but I think I just have to get it out. The thought of disappointing my kids again breaks my heart. They are looking forward to going. I already have our room reserved in Canal Park, so we don't have to drive to see the ships. I have told them how cool it is there, now I wish I would have kept my mouth shut.
So now, my fibro is really rearing it's ugly head. It feels like I have knots in my upper back, my joints hurt, even when just sitting. My elbows feel like they are on fire. The constant headache, and I don't have much of an appetite, and really have to force myself to go out, or to do basic cleaning in the apartment. I would just as soon stay in bed curled up with my pillows and sleep. Everything that they say I have is showing up, my anxiety is high again, when I do sleep, I dream so much and they seem to be so real. I can't make a decision to save my butt. Concentration...what is that? ha ha
I am going to post some pictures, I have found some new ones that I hope you will like as much as I do.
I am sorry I haven't been here much, seems like everything is coming at me one right after the other.
Love ya
Dawn