I AHVE TO VENT THIS. . .random KINDA LONG, SORRY

SO last week I let my friend borrow my laptop multiple times. ..first of all I have never let anyone use my laptop outside of my home, NEVER. My Mac cost $1100 so I am very careful with it bcus these things are ridiculously expensive. . .but her comp broke so I let her take mine to her house bcus she had homework to do. Her children are DESTROYERS. they have no sense of respect for anything so as my comp was out of my hands I was nervous and hoping her destroyers would not spill anything on it or touch it or what have you and I even warned her of my uncomfy feeling of her kids being around it because I am sure they broke hers. . .but I let her keep it OVERNIGHT, she returns it, it's fine.

She buys a new PC the other day. . wait let me back up . .

My training in school requires me to use a PC for the online exams, even if I used Office for Mac, I still can't do the exams because the software isn't 100% Office. . I broke my PC last month (a wk after buying it for $278 from Best Buy) bcus I was angry after sitting for hrs doing work and the comp started to freeze, erasing all my work, I picked it up and chucked it at the wall *I have anger issues, thanx Fibro* so I've been going to school to do my training but it's exhausting (all my fault, I know)

So, I have 8 chapters to finish by wends, noon each one can take me up to 2 hours to complete. Thats 16-20 hours of online training & I have to go to school to do it which is brutal because it's noisy, people smelly cig breath or perfumes kills me,etc . .so I ask her if I can keep hers til wends morn and she can take mine. .NOW she has an ACER, an effing ACER. . it's plastic (yep I'm comparing the value of ours because it matters). . .she has a paper to write, I have training, I figure why not switch. . .she says, she doesn't "know" if she want me keeping it for that long. ..so I tell her that I let you keep my EXPENSIVE computer around your destroyer children (don't worry she knows her children destroy stuff) and take it to work around hair chemicals and I'm talking a trade for 48 hrs, in my home with my non-destroyer child, to do homework so I don't have to be in pain at school (not to mention guys I let her take my son's *getting repaired* netbook's charger to her house for her old broken comp to charge on before she got the new one and she can't find now, cus her children misplaced or destroyed it*

So I am livid! I have to get up, feet hurting, body in pain, get dressed, get on the bus, get on the train, get on another bus, get to school , wait forever for the comps to log on *if one is open* do the work with my headphones on with classical music playing so as to drown out the ppl who are talking who shouldn't be, in the lab. . .for abt 6 hours, then leave, go home, get my son and sit at home when i can be doing my training at home getting all of it done pretty much in one day. . I mean I helped her finish her paper before my own homework, I feel like I extended my hand so her work can be turned in on time and I ask for one favor so my work can be turn in on time and I get a NO. .I am in so much pain and it would be so nice for me to do it at home. .yes I broke my comp but she broke hers and I didn't make that a reason to not let her use mine, I know they say don't do things for ppl expecting to have them return the favor but I was blown away guys, blown away!!

It’s hard to understand selfish people when you are a caring, compassionate person willing to share. If I were you, I would flatly say no if she ever asks to use yours again. Some schools have loaner laptops available at their libraries - check it out and see. Also, there probably is an office in the either the admissions or counseling dept. that helps students with disabilities. They may have a conversion software program the IT dept. can install on your MAC for little or nothing. Most schools will do everything they can to accommodate those with disabilities.

I can understand your frustrating with the pc you through against the wall. It probably did more damage to the wall than the computer! I get do frustrated at work (high school) when programs take forever to load. My patience is very thin when I’m in pain and lack of sleep.

I wish you the best on your paper - once it’s done - what a great accomplishment of all you went through in trying to get it done.

Wow. Yeah, I can understand your hurt feelings, Mo. You *trusted* her with your prized possession that IS very expensive and valuable and she refused to do the same with her rather cheap prized possession. You are obviously the more generous person. But I guess it shows you NOT to lend out your valuable Mac that you need to her again or perhaps anyone. It's SAD that you helped her out when she was down and out and she would not help you out when you're in pain and needed that little peace of mind.

I think, too, that your pain is talking, making this issue even harder for you to handle. What's NOT a big deal to others (catching the bus to go to school, etc.) is a HUUUUUUUUUGE deal for us. All of that slagging along on the bus, to the school, in the school, and then back, all the while with all of that pain. It really is a rotten way to have to live our lives.

Is there any way possible that you could afford a cheap Acer, either new or used, to help you out with the school run? Or even a NETBOOK? They're pretty good for most things.

Please know that if you lived near me, I'd be glad to lend you my netbook because I do trust you, not even knowing you. So I'm sorry that your friend didn't do the right thing this time.

Mo, good luck on your work… I hope you have a break coming up… I can’t understand why your friend wouldn’t help you out, does she understand how hard it is for you to do what you are doing ? Well obviously not, unless they suffer they just don’t get it,
I’m so sorry that a friend who had the power to make life a little easier for you just wouldn’t … That is so hurtful, I understand… my friend of 30 years does not understand… So I try to remember that
Hugs & blessings