2023-05-17, Wednesday - increase DAO before meals, keep passiflora a bit less, and GABA more. Still no creatine yet, and definitely not repeating colostrum for a while, altho it was only a 3 hour problem, not like the histaminey foods 20 hours. Pretty foggy days considering how much falls, so fog = 10% is a bit of a joke, I’ll take it up to 30% and think about increasing it. I am managing to mail quite a bit, but this is all very slow, words too, maybe fog = 50%??
Exhaustibility “86%". Click for details (but same profile as the days before):
R rest: 100% exhaustion 15% of the time (2h),
VS very slow: 60% exh. 45% of the time (7h),
S slow: 40% exhaustion 45% of the time (7h),
M medium: 20% exhaustion <5% of the time (<1h),
Q quick: 0-10% exhaustion 0% of the time
(pre-fibro: 0% exhaustion 100% of the time.)
Weight TODAY 17th 75.6kg = gain! Click for details.
empty without meal e and if possible emptied = e, half-emptied = (e), empty of B-supps/milk = ‘e’, if not emptied = ‘x’, bedclothes 0.9kg = ‘+’, outdoor clothes 1.8kg, B-supps 0.4kg? excr. varies,
17th: 75.8/8/6kg exe 75.6/6/9/9kg exe (after shower)
16th: 75.2/5/2kg eee+bc0 scales/2nd emptying.
15th: 75.5/7/3/6kg eex
14th: 76.5/1kg exe with bc. That’d be 75.2 exx without?
13th: 74.9kg eex.
12th: 74.3 eex (75.2kg/75.5kg xxe 74.2/74.3kg/74.3 eex)
11th: 74.4kg (eex)
(75.5kg/75.3kg xxe 75.6kg xxx 74.6kg/74.7kg/74.4kg/74.4kg/74.4kg (eex)
10th: 74.9kg xxe 74.2kg exe
9th: 75.3kg xxe 74.4kg eee
8th: 75.7kg xxe, 76.0kg xxx 75.1kg exx, 75.0kg exx after shower.
7th: 75.8/76.0kg. (down from 76.2kg half an hour ago?!) in bedclothes. Down to 75.7kg after 100ml pee. Still 75.1/75.2kg exe after clothes off before showering.
6th: 76.1kg/75.9kg xxe with bedstuff on. 75.9kg / 75.6kg with bedclothes, 74.8kg exe without.
5th: (14:45 - normally around 7:00 75.3kg (e)xe)
4th 74.7kg exx (74.9 xxe, 75.4 xxx, 75,8 xxx, 75.5 xxx 75.6 xxx 74.7 exx, after shower 74.8 exx… O.o.
3rd 76.4-5kg xxx 75.6 eex
2nd 75.4kg exe
1st 75.9/76.0kg with clothes, 75.2kg xex - 0.9 = 74,3kg.
30th 74.7kg with clothes. 74.2kg after supps without clothes before loo. 74.4kg! after excr?!? 74.5kg after shower. 76.4kg with indoor clothes on.
29th 74.6kg exe, 75.5kg with bedclothes on = 0.9kg! B-supps: 75.0kg = 400g. + bedclothes = 75.9kg = 900g confirmed. excre: 74.5kg e(e)e - only 0.1kg… 2nd time 74.6kg e(e)e = 0.0! Shower = 74.6kg e(x)e, but 5’ later after sorting clothes = 74.2kg e(x)e. 1’ later 74.4kg + 74.4kg + 74.4kg. Holding normal clothes amount 76.2kg/76.2kg = 1.8kg
28th 75.0kg exe, 75.2kg exx (i.e. B-supps = 200g) 75.0kg eex (i.e. small excr. = 200g today), showering puts on 100mg I think it was, night clothes back on 75.8kg, so they are 600g?
27th 74.9kg exe
26th 73.5kg eee (fully e)
25th 74.2kg eee
24th 74.3kg e((e))e
23rd 73.9kg exx 73.8 eex
22nd 73.6kg e, NOT e! not e
21st 74.0kg ee
20th 73.8kg ee
19th 74.0kg
18th 73.5kg
16th 73.9kg
14th 72.8kg
13th 73.6kg
Food: 1st: 100% (at 11:00, forgot!) 2nd: 85% 3rd: 90%
Sleep 90% / Feeling 80%-ish / nausea 0%, fog 30%
New Habits: Changing lots all the time. Click for what I'm working on. Sharp pulling forward of sleep to 10 to 6 from Apr 20th on has now turned my life around ✅, pulling everything forward further ✅.
Bed 21:30-5:30. (
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Note thoughts and emotions (ACT) ()
Today's FM symptoms unchanged from WPI 11 & SSS 9-1=8, except....: + (Click for details)
Today’s symptoms sorted by the ACR 2016 criteria
Widespread pain, WPI = 11 of 19 areas: limb-Ache 8 (30-60%, stiff 30%) + spine-pain 3 (10%), shoulder-girdles/hips 0 chest / abdomen / jaw 0
Symptom severity, SSS = severity 9 of 12: Fatigue 3 (86%), insomnia 2 (10%), fog 2 (30%), headache (0) GI 1 (10%), depression 0
Triggers & resulting Symptoms
JAB#3 (on Nov 7th) causing MCAS / histamine problems, esp. energy down to (10-)15-20%. May 16th: Soy yoghurt & yeast veg. spread: 20h sinus headache. May 6th/7th: Baked beans. May 1st: white beans. Click for developments:
JAB#3 (on Nov 7th) → MCAS / histamine since end of Dec: 15-20% energy for under 45’, then white lips & pale face. But if I keep strain down to ‘half speed’ (70%) I can push on thru for hours - with a few breaks and lots of task-switching. Not that much specifically histaminey problems since end of Dec, occasionally sinuses and nausea, no more ill ache. Usually white lips & face 30%, and some sliding instead of walking indoors 10%, bit more cold intolerance 30% (long johns 24/7, 2 thick duvets at night). From Jan on, bit warmer (5-12° C), I’ve swapped long johns for a 2nd pair of pyjama trousers at night and when I’m pretty active at daytime sometimes no long johns, but when out slow cycling/walking. And don’t need hot water bottles any more, whether I can manage a cold shower (usually) or not.
Development summarized: Down: Nov 17th - Dec 1st, worst 17th-18th, best 20th & 29th. Up: Dec 2nd-6th, Down 7th-8th, Up: 9th-14th, best 13th-14th: Winning easily 4:0, and slow energy for 4h! Down: 15th-21st 7 days, Up 22nd to 24th winning roughly 3:1, Unsure: 25th-31st: TT 2:2 or no play possible: 25th 2:2(?), (26th 0), 27th: 2:2, (28th 0 - ordered supps, not cellar), Down: 1st-2nd, 4th. Up: 3rd, 5th. Both: 6th-11th - sinuses, tongue, lips, runny, DAO helping. Cold: 12th. 13th: GI: HP supps? 14th: B3-Flushing up!? 15th: Runny nose, 16th-21st & 25th-26th…: Tongue off and on. 23rd-25th: Sore buttock (& leg) muscles like after the jabs since 23rd. 26th: Cold, pain & fatigue, energy from 18% to 10% since 19th. 27th: Bad. 28th: Bad to better. 29th: OK, considering. 30th: Foods slightly histamine-y. 31st: Still no appetite. From Feb 3rd on: 10% energy. Cold tolerance good, just not my fingertips. 8th: Bit of tongue after red beans, but OK. Feb 12th 6:00: Stronger histamine-y symptoms and stomach pang. Feb 15th: strong headache evening and night probably from red beans without DAO, praps also the sinus burning. Feb 18th: More energy for the first time. Very red lips, looking inflamed, go white when I press them together. From Feb 19th on: back down to 10% energy, everything else fairly OK, incl. at night, incl. cold tolerance, incl. fingertips, but lips’d be white if they weren’t chapped and inflamed. Feb 24th: Energy up to 14% due to specks of T4. Feb 26th: sinuses upon waking up 9:20… Energy up to 20% from T4. Mar 10th evening: Virus Ache of 5-7, underlying energy seems unchanged 20%. Mar 12th: all Ache und pains decreasing, urge better until I move, but no appetite, nauseous when I do something slightly strenuous, and dry coughing like mad a lot of the time. Mar 13th: Histaminey burnt tongue and feverishness after 1h intense ‘work’ phone call. Mar 16th: Still some histamine rests, but energy vs. histamine like before CoV, praps less stiffness, but less appetite. Mar 23rd still seemingly in the midst of a re-visit of the "CoV symptoms. Mar 24th still severest exhaustion with feverish ache despite energy, appetite increasing, bladder a bit better, cough not sure. Apr 4th: Found out that we’d got CoV from a person who hadn’t taken their’s seriously and hadn’t told us immediately that they had it: grrrrrrrr! Increasing GABA has stopped all bladder problems, but not yet all sinus burning. Apr 11th: CoV-cough and bladder seems to be recovering, T4-temperature/night sweats too, now appetite needs to recover weight… Awake at night 1h and tongue burning for >24h from banana and tuna. Apr 15th Histaminey sinus “cold” 21:00-24:00 after too much concentrated soy products. May 1st: strong histamine symptoms after 100g of washed white beans without DAO. But shows that the recent higher histamine symptoms after CoV have got better. May 16th: Soy yoghurt & yeast veg. spread without DAO. Try again with DAO! Effect: Wide awake at 4, needed extra vagal relaxation to continue sleep, woke up with sinuses and frontal headache for 20h, then also awake at 4/5 the morning of the 17th. Evening of 16th: 2 DAO, continuing that.
Treatments: Antihistamine, and extra GABA from Nov 29th. Stopping the antihistamine at the turn of the year quickly caused sleep problems.
SLEEP (click for details): 6h48 up x (1h07), mainly deep. ✅ ➔ Feeling 70% well, Ache 2 of 7 ❌, getting up: 80%/2 ✅. Nostrils 0-5% stuffy 100% of the night ✅. No sweat. Feel a bit better when up with less passiflora, but the amounts and total length of breaks have gone up rather than down, that might've been due to a histamine rest, against which a cold shower helped in shorter time than the "relaxation" the night before (22'). Again I should have finalized yesterday's blog entry before the evening meal. I think I felt only 70% well instead of 80% tonight cos of histamine, not cos less passiflora doesn't make a difference, so with more DAO now and keeping passiflora down, I hope to get back up to 80%.
A3 A4 teeth0 cold shower0 p0 HWB#0 Sleep 23:15- 3rd # is LBU
0:12 5’ 70%/2/15% p0 st3 sip fw2’ deep/ air/ A5/ plugs0 cream0 gel0 HWB#(0) Bedclothes: wet0% teeth0 alternate shower0
(nostril/s5/0% sinuses5% headache0% sore throat20%, nausea0% stomach0% tongue5% stools0 loose%) FA/CS#0 77.0/0/3kg xxx+
1:00 7’ 70%/2/25% p0 st3 sip fw2’ deep/ air/ A6/ plugs0 cream0 gel0 HWB#(0) Bedclothes: wet0% teeth:spaces alternate shower0
(nostril/s0/0% sinuses0% headache0% sore throat10%, nausea0% stomach0% tongue5% stools0 loose%) FA/CS#0 76.9/0/3kg xxx+
2:20 4’ 70%/2/25% p0 st3 sip fw1’ deep/ air/ A7/ plugs0 cream0 gel0 HWB#(0) Bedclothes: wet0% teeth0 alternate shower0
(nostril/s0/0% sinuses10% headache10% sore throat10%, nausea0% stomach0% tongue5% stools0 loose%) FA/CS#0 77.1/1/3kg xxx+
3:40 10’ 70%/2/20% p0 st3 sip fw1’ deep/ air/ A8/ plugs0 cream0 gel0 HWB#(0) Bedclothes: wet0% teeth0 alternate shower0
(nostril/s0/0% sinuses10% headache10% sore throat10%, nausea0% stomach0% tongue5% stools0 loose%) FA/CS#0 76.9/6/6kg xxx+
4:13 19’ 70%/2/20% p0 st3 sip fw1’ deep/ air/ A9:0 plugs0 cream? gel0 HWB#(0) Bedclothes: wet0% teeth0 alternate shower0
(nostril/s0/0% sinuses10% headache0% sore throat10%, nausea010% stomach0% tongue5% stools0 loose%) FA/CS#0 76.7/6/6kg xxx+
5:07 22’ 70%/2/20% p0 st3 sip fw1’ deep/ air/ A9:0 plugs0 cream0 gel0 HWB#(0) Bedclothes: wet0% teeth0 cold shower/
(nostril/s0/0% sinuses10% headache0% sore throat10%, nausea010% stomach0% tongue5% stools0 loose%) FA/CS#1 75.8/8/6kg exe 75.6/6/9/9kg exe (after shower)
-7:14
Sum: 0h45+7h14-(5+7+4+10+19+22=)67 = 7h55-1h07 = 6h48 up x (1h07), mainly deep - feel better when up with less passiflora, but the amounts and total length of breaks have gone up rather than down, that might’ve been due to a histamine rest, against which a cold shower helped in shorter time than the “relaxation” the night before (22’). Again I should have finalized yesterday’s blog entry before the evening meal.
ACTIVITIES ➔ ACHE: 80%/2 , TT 0, resting a lot recovering from the histamine overload ➔ 80%/2 , gardening/moving ➔ 80%/2-3 , talking ➔ 80%/3 
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ACTIONS ➔ PAINS ✅/(✅): GI, appetite, esophagus, pee, back, lips. Details...
except GI: stools loose0% , appetite a little better (), esophagus: if I’m extremely careful and stop eating, spread supps & meal (length up to 2h), whenever there’s the slightest pressure , pee pain: 0xp1-2 , lower back unrest , finger tips: better. (). Lip soreness better since fungal cream (), but lips still often white, esp. when pressed, meaning overexertion according to my wife (). Still often thirsty / dry lips & mouth ()
Click for details on Weather: not enough sun to nauseate (✅), last seizures May 14th/13th, Apr 16th/15th, last esophagus block: Apr 4th, jaw pain Jan 30th.
Touch: Covid: Weather: Indoors Outdoors /. Outdoors almost all day now, so no need for daylight lamp, if the sun becomes too bright and warm I do something in the cellar or the shade, making myself at home there.
Last focal seizures: May 14th 9:00 and May 13th 20:00 from stress I think, but I have also reduced the night time GABA praps too much. Apr 16th 13:25, Apr 15th 22:00 (GABA too late plus cold type symptoms = histamine), Mar 31st 19:00 (too little GABA, too strenuous meeting), Jan 15th 10:40 (from a pee urge, only 2nd “wave”). Jan 14th 23:58 (no trigger, praps missing out on .6g GABA Friday). Jan 5th (after being scolded for being hyper). Dec 11th: 1x. Nov 21st: 2x.
Last esophagus blocks: Apr 4th: Carrot, got it out quick. Mar 26th just the supps. Mar 23rd: Tiny bit of parsnip I think it was, had to get it out, had no patience to massage longer than 5-6’. Mar 13th (roughly) same as: Feb 26th: midday: block not waiting long enough with muesli after supps. Feb 20th eve: block from I think carrots resolved with massager. Feb 5th: From C-supps. Jan 19th: Sometimes do use massager a while to make sure. Jan 17th: I can take my B supps and then go to bed again atm. Jan 8th: Block after evening supps, maybe from twisting. Jan 7th: Testing if twisting before, while & after pills & food increases esophagus blocks Jan 6th: Slight blocks. Jan 5th: Medium block in evening. About 5x small blocks from pills around end of the year. Dec (20th, 15th) 11th (9th,) 1st, Nov 30th 2x, 29th 2x, (28th,) 24th, 22nd, 20th. Powder blocks in funnel if it’s too much in one go…
Jaw: Hardly & seldom pain since Nov. A bit more in Jan. Jan 6th: Slightly psychosomatic from memory of a painful time. Jan 10th: A bit after tooth cleaning. After: regularly a little bit, 1-2x/d. Better since improving tooth care again and giving that side of the jaw a rest from chewing for a few days from Feb on.
Treatments
Last doc update May 3rd. Self-treatments & supps stable - May 15th: stretches helping wrists, not enough back exercises, and colostrum not tolerated, creatine next. Click for details.
Click for details: Update May 3rd: onco prof/doc is sick. Apr 24th: Weird, interesting onco appointment, further appt. by next Tuesday at the very latest. Apr 20th: Bloods OK, except PSA: prostate too high, all the more reason to get the cancer check starting Monday 24th. Apr 9th: Night sweats have inside of 2 nights switched over to the opposite extreme: cold, needing full winter bedstuff & sore throat. Apr 6th: My gyn(!): nothing on the sono, don't get it taken out, praps a mammography, keep the oncology-appt. on 24th. Apr 5th: wife's gyn says get a mamilla sono. Apr 3rd: surgeon cos of left mamilla swelling says wait 5 weeks, Mar 30th: lung X-ray shows nothing to explain my cough, Mar 29th GP says possibly B-symptoms. Mar 9th: Tea tree oil salve since takes the brunt off the lip hurt. Early March: Antihistamine back up to 10mg to curb T4-insomnia & histaminey symptoms. 3% of a T4 for thyroid Feb 24th till Mar 23rd: more energy, but lost appetite and weight. Feb-bloods: Ω3 needs increasing, much too low.
GP’s antifungal cream for my lips Feb 28th, then Mar 1st tea tree oil cream, helpful, but never quite gone.
3% of T4 Feb 23rd-Mar22nd: Day #4 bit more than the days before: Slower energy, histamine-y sinuses and frontal headache. Decreasing improved all that again.
Bloods Feb 7th: Most (like WBC, B2, phosphate and protein) are better, but still keeping those going, biotin and manganese too high.
SELF-PHYSIO (click for details): OK? Wrists: more (✅), jaw-joint: to do (❌). Air + light + movement all day. ✅
white_check_mark: airing 5x2’, cold shower 1x(10’), cream/oil fc/ey/hd/ft x1’, teeth x2’, HWB 0x3’, breath exercises 5x1’, Y. Nidra 0’, massage gun 0x3’, daylight lamp/sun 6x5’, plantar/calf stretch x1’, acupressure 0x1’, palpate 0’, belly 3’, back 10’, !!aloe vera 0x1’, twist-stretch x1’, yoga/stretching x1’, hang x1’. wart x1.
Combine: next?
hunchback-pillow 0’. neck 1+ x1’, RR: 0, neck 2 0x1’, workout 7’, horse stance 1’, balance roll standing 5’, breath-hold 12’, jolt-jump 1’, marionette-hang 1’, shaking dance 1’, bent leg fall 1’.
Supps Jan 8th (48 supps): Supp costs: 466€/m (8th) + 16€/m for empty capsules = 482€/m. MAY 4th: Encapsulating outside, which is helping me to get more prepared in time. Keeping to schedule TODAY: OK MAY 12th: Got Silymarin now, and Creatine, do them after colostrum. ATP again, encapsulated, for phosphate?? Click for details on the lists, with dosing batches by times and tubs.
ZERO now: Arg, alpha-GPC 1x150mg, fisetin: 0x196mg, huperzia A, mumijo, NAC 1*.5g, NADH, psyllium (Ps), Ribose, Serrapeptase, Zinc, P5P (= vit. B6) 0x27mg (high).
REGULAR as of Jan 8th (48 supps): (R-)ALA .2g, aloe vera juice 50+ml/d, apigenin 1x50mg, vit. B2 6x600mg, vit. B3/Nia 6x0.6=3.6g, vit. B5/Panto: 3x.5g vit. B12 (methyl-C) 1x5mg/4m s.c., AND B12 1x0.2mg (all 3 good types) WITH vit. B9/5-MTHF 1x0.4mg, vit. C 2x3x.5g, L-carnitine (Cr) 8x0.6g, copper (Cu) 1x2mg, vit. D3 20.000 IE = 500mcg, WITH vit. K2 (MK7) 200mcg, DAO before meals, EGCg 1x(50%, incl. L-theanine?).5g, ellagic Acid (Ell) 2x.2g (+43mg vit. C), eleuthero (eleu) 2x4,5mg, feverfew (fev) 3x.4g WITH 3x.2g MSM, GABA (Ga): 4x0.3g+2x.6g=2.4g, ginkgo (Gi) 3x168mg, (L-)glutamin (gltm, glu): 2x0.6g, glutathione (gltt) 1x250mg, honokiol (Hon) (2%)x2x.4g=16mg, luteolin 1x.2g, magnesium glycinate (mag gly) 2x50mg, mag malate (mag mal) 0x45mg, mag threonate (mag threo) 2x50g, monkfruit 0.1g, myo-inositol 1x1g/1!d, olive leaf extract (oli) 2x.75, Ω3 1x5mg, passiflora (Pf) 3x.35g, Levagen±PEA 1x0.3g, pine bark (pin) 2x.5g, PQQ 1, CoQ10 (Q10)(ubn) 1x.1g, quercetin (Qc) 4x.5g, resveratrol (Rs) (50%) 2x.4g, rhodiola (Ro) 2x.35g, rutin (ru): 1x522. SAM-e (Sa) 2x.1g, Selenium 1x.2mg, Silymarin (Sil) (80%) 1x.5g (+83mg L-cholin), (L-)theanine (The) 1x.2g (+.15g polyphenols) (next 2x0.1mg), TMG: 6x0.6=3.6g (as much as B3). Plus rupatadine/Rupafin 1x/d since jab#3 Nov. Plus practitioners recommendations: #1) masterwort / Imperatoria ostruthium, #2) Hexacyl (Sulphur D4, Lycopodium Ø, Berberis Ø), #3) add Steirocall comp. (for “arthrosis” & bones) (& umckaloabo). Not at all sure about any of these, after 3 weeks of Hexacyl, #4 bitter herbs when Hexacyl bottle is finished, #5 more B5 now, #6 “glutathione activator” → upping MSM, selenium, and have asked if manganese and vit. E are important. #7 Pro Mucosa: added Hericium, can’t increase glutamine, asked back about ficin and biotin, #8 Chlorella, #9 B9 as 5-MTHF for homocysteine.
What-when-details: Updated Jan 8th.
“16:00” preparing pills
“18:15” A1 PF#1, 2x threo., Lut, Qc#1.
5’ “empty time” = to see if I need worry time.
“18:30” myo-inositol + teeth
“19:30” A2=12+1 2xvB2#1 2xvB3 vB5#1 2Cr#1, PF#2, Cu, .3gGABA CoQ10 (oil) &! Se, 2xTMG#1. Meal: 1PQQ, 5ml Ω3 & Hon#1. monkfruit.
Meal 20: ’ +xylitol. Back exercises. Soak seeds. aloe.
“20:30” pre-A3 agigenin 1h before bedtime + teeth
“20:30” chamomile
“21:00” A3 PF#3 0.3gGABA & .6glu & Qc#2 Hon#2 + 1 Rupafin or A2
“2:00” A4 300mg GABA + teeth
“4:00” +0.25 GABA
B=11/ ’ in sun/lamp “07:00” ALA, Ro#1, Qc#3 Rs#1 2xSAM-e EGCg + Fev/MSM#1 + Sily +2The.
Back exercises.
Soak Soak pumpkin seeds & almonds.
Teeth.
Meal ’ in sun/lamp. aloe.
’ in sun/lamp C=23/ with meal: 2xB2#2 2xvB3#2 vB5#2 3xvC#1 3xCr#2 .6GABA#4, gink#1, Oli#1 pine bark#1 2xTMG#2 2xEleu 2gly PEA Rutin = 23. (vit.D3 1/wk)
xylitol
teeth
“11:00” D1(0) + Teeth (+2h/) Ellag#1, Fev/MSM#2, gi#2.
“14:00” 0 Meal ’ in sun +aloe
“14:15” D=15/ ’ in sun vB2#3 "2"vB3#3 vB5#3 3xvC#2 3Cr#3, .6GABA#5, gink#3 Oli#2, pine#2, TMG#3
xylitol
teeth
“16:00” preparing pills: 5x to encapsulate.
E “17:00” (“meal/acids+2h”) Ellag#2, Fev/MSM#3 Qc#4, Ro#2, Rs#2.
A1 “18:00”
myo-inositol
Eat + aloe + PQQ+Ω3 if not earlier.
A2 + apigenin & heating down
(B12 s.c.: 2022-11-04, 2022-04-10, 2022-01-10: B12 5mg methylcobalamin s.c.)
eve:
The day's supp-compartments (8', plus 10' making capsules), Jan 8th
Pf: A1+A2+A3, vB2: 2A,2C,2D. vB3: 2A,2C,2D. vB5: A,C,D. vC:0A+3C+3D 8Cr: 2A+3C+3D, Ell: D0+E. Fev/MSM: B,D0. Ga 4-5x: a2,a3,a4,C,D, Gi: C,D0,D Glutathione: B. Hon:A2.A3. Oliv: C,D. pine: C,D. Qc: A1.A3.B.E Ro:B,D Rs:B,D SINGLE: A1: 0xMgMal, luteolin. 2MgThreo. myo-inositol (15’ before meal 1x/(2)d) A2: Cu (separate from P5P etc.!)+0P5+1xQ10 (->ubiquinone <150mg/d! atm ubiquinol), 1xSe. (A2:Ω/Pq:meal, A3: apigenin) A3: Glutamin (0c1), B (or C): ALA, EGCg, 2xeleu, , Ru, 2 Sa, Sily, 2Th, C: 2 Gly, PEA, DAO before risky meals? monkfruit usually evenings, aloe vera. D3 saturdays. (A2:0Se, up soon)
TALLIES Jan 9th: correct?
A1=6+1 Pf#1 Qc1#1, Lut, 2 MgThreo, + myo-inositol + (DAO?)
A2=16 2vB2#1 "2"xvB3, vB5#1, 2xCr#1, Cu, Pf#2, Ga#1, Hon#1, Q10, Se, 2TMG#1 + Rup. = 16
+Ω3/PQQ/aloe +monkfruit +apigenin 16(+5) -1 vB5 = 15.
A3=5 Pf#3, Ga#1, Gltm, Hon#2, Qc#3
A4=1 Ga, A5=1 Ga#2
B=11 ALA, EGCg, Fev/MSM#1, Glutt, Qc#3, Ro#1, Rs#2, 2xSa, 2Th, Sily (DAO?) = 11/
C=22 2vB2#2 "2"xvB3#2 vB5#2 3xvC#1 3xCr#2 Ga#4 Gi#2 Ol#1 Pin#1 TMG#2 2xEleu 2xMgGly PEA Rut = 22 - vB5 = 21.
D0=2 Ell, Fev/MSM#2, Gi, + (DAO?)
D=15 2vB2#3 "2"vB3#3 vB5#3 3xvC#2 3xCr#3 Ga#5 Gi#3 Ol#2 Pin#2 TMG#3 Fev/MSM#2
25th: -vB5#3: so only 14/
E=4 Ell, Qc#4, Ro#2, Rs#2. Fev/MSM#3
B12 4-monthly, D3 Saturdays.
Development
Click to read the main part of the mail I wrote to explain why I am not able to meet with 2 nice people to talk about a project:
I had to have a long think about how you came to think I can do this & how I can explain it to you.
Last June I had to cancel an important video conference for colleagues.
Despite the need and desire - that doesn’t make it better, but more difficult.
Since then I organize even large complex events exclusively by mail, telephone at most 5-20 min. For people who do not understand me that well, there must then be a “translator” on site.
And despite my enthusiasm, I completely overestimated myself in our first zoom-meeting. Both even trying it at all, and not insisting on my 40’-50’ limit. It was really bad for me. I didn’t want to tell you that so clearly at the time. Now it seems necessary. But that’s why I mailed you afterwards, that no further meeting is possible - and since then I have been getting even worse, especially in the last months talking. Because of my “brain fog” I drop something about once an hour, I have to clean up something all the time, the day before yesterday I cut myself deeply. The words that come out when I talk are often hilarious. When I have to go up against it “out of house”, that takes a tremendous effort.
I rarely meet / talk on the phone with friends and family because of it.
You guys have the strength to condense things, I don’t anymore. I have to wrestle 24/7 with my body (even while lying down), my and your words / thoughts, and the things around me. And still often have to do several things at once to endure this kind of thing. And in any case almost constantly think about it 3 times, carefully approach everything I do. And nevertheless, often have to compensate for that ‘several times’ afterwards: to recover, mentally and physically, to reflect, to draw new strength. With everything, not with special things.
You only know me a bit. At work, my colleagues and bosses know that they can rely on my organization 100%, even for complex things, down to the last detail. Since you don’t know that, it’s understandable if you can’t, it’s a pity, but just bad luck. Tasks must come towards me, no, fly towards me, with their own momentum, which I can then use and “direct further”.
The possibilities I still came up with would be that you at least give my request a chance. And an Aaron (Ex 4:14) for my ideas, who can be my mouth, take over the talking. Not necessarily to share my opinion, only to understand me. But from now on things in this project must “fly” to me, I cannot run after them and explain further, that takes away strength for life, for work and for my dearest ones.
‘Research’ today: No.
Lessons in self-care #666 a) Resting and mailing a lot is OK today, after finishing the difficult topic. b) Easily a favour my Wife asked for which
Reasons to be cheerful #716 Loads. a) Blackbird dad is getting nearer, less scared, and b) enjoying the guinea pig bath for his baths, c) got the next long mail out at last, explaining why exactly I can’t
Simplified #115 Loads.
Foggies: a) dropped muesli bowl first thing, empty, b) smashed a plate, empty, by dropping a can out of a cupboard, c) dropped full small watering can on to coffee filter and cut up banana peel I’m drying to use as fertilizer, all on to the carpet, d) dropped lots of things, e) forgot 2 flowers in pots, they had to come after me… f) fell all over the place, nothing happened tho, g) being talking funny the past few days too, h) lots more, forgotten… thankfully… i) suddenly remembered I’d bought something dairy, but didn’t know what where or where from or where it is, found it again an hour later and still had difficulty recalling, just used logic, j) forgot several times that shops aren’t open tomorrow and kids might be coming cos of ascension… k) threw a small full yogurt on to the floor during the evening meal… Getting crazy…
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