2021-12-17, Friday - Went to acupressure to not get acupressure done… 
v4: 16:15 By going to acupressure & discussing (incl. anxiety) I’m worse again. Yoga Nidra has helped a bit, but I’m now back on the sofa, like 8 months ago.
v3: 10:30 Haven’t cancelled acupressure, but prepared her by texting that I don’t feel like it at all…
v2: 06:35 Realizing that an aversion towards the acupressure has grown - my wife’s neat suggestion: cancel it today.
v1: eve before - feeling pretty miserable for once (from the Ache after TT)…
Triggers & resulting Symptoms
SLEEP (click for details): 6h55, up 4x (1h) + 1h20 Nidra = 8h15 ➔ Feeling 70-80% well, Ache 2-3 of 7 ❌
No fw! lbu: belly tensing? No half-sitting on sofa!
alternating shower p2 Sleep 22:35-
00:57 14’ 70%/3 p1 st1 drink fw8’ yucky-spewey
03:33 3’ 80%/2 p0 st1 drink fw1’ bit better
03:50 40’ 6 dozing quite a lot, but waking up re-imaging a dream (jumped up high, slid down - & up - with superpowers)
06:05 3’ 70%/3 p0 st1 drink fw1’ HWB for Ache-comfort
-06:30
06:50 - 08:20 -10’ Yoga Nidra 1h20
Sum: 1h25+6h30-(14+3+40+3=)1h = 7h55-1h = 6h55, up 4x (1h) + 1h20 Nidra = 8h15
ACTIVITIES (aiming for 40% of pre-fibro) ➔ ACHE: eve still ➔ 70%/3 
, alternating shower helped a bit, but itchy skin ➔ 70%/2 , at night feeling as if I’d been sleeping for hours and hours, not just 2.5h at the first break, also very Achey & feverish-nauseous in the way of a gastritis, as if I had to spew soon. ➔ 60%/3 , better, after Yoga Nidra, but still ➔ 70%/2 , singing a bit cheered me up a moment, but still ➔ 70%/2 . Going (cycling pretty slowly) to talk with the acupressurist took ages again and hurt even more, partly like I’d pre-talked with my psychotherapist I was co-dependently ➔ 60%/4-5 , singing a bit again cheered, but my wife convinced me to sleep a bit, so I did my favourite Ally Boothroyd Yoga Nidra video again ➔ 60%/4 . Now after tidying my room up a bit, I’m having to go back to my sofa-lying, absolutely sweatily exhausted. ➔ 60%/4
ACTIONS ➔ PAINS: 
, mainly the overall Ache all of the time.
(e.g. lie, stand, loins, sit, arms up, neck, stiff, walk, cycle, 0xp1-2, GI, talk, mask.) ?
Treatments
THERAPIES: “Acupressure” today: An aversion towards the acupressure has grown out of having become tired of it. It has helped me so much, more than anything else, even in the past weeks, to get local pains down. But it hasn’t helped any more with the overall pain: The Ache, the fatigue. And all the supps have been doing that, but taking a lot of my time & energy in doing so, until I got them sorted. Now that’s OK. I’m grateful for all she’s managed to do, small miracles, lots of bumps and scars etc. But neither has she up to now apparently still not understood that that’s not my core problem, nor has the treatment increased my “activity limit of 40%”. So the treatment has just got too much for me and isn’t effective enough considering the long hours I’m there, often 5h per week.
So I went like I prepared her, but she didn’t seem to see how much effort it was costing me. As she has helped me so much, I feel indebted and she keeps taking the role of telling (me) what to do - which is often quite good, but also often enough missing the point, which is very strenuous - to keep correcting her about things she doesn’t know. That again took me way over my limits again. She still says she believes she can help me with “energy flow” to get the pain down. To be honest, I don’t believe any more. So it was tough, and a direct confrontation of my co-dependency anxiety, but I’ve started talking about reducing, needing a break etc. A suggestion of her’s toward the end was to stay in bed more and not force myself to do the self-treatments. As I have been keeping still most of the time since the jab this wasn’t anything new, but I saved my breath there. And the self-treatments do not stress me much, even the loins one (left foot under right knee), which hurts quite a lot, helps me with sitting.
Let’s put it in a nutshell: Whatever my acupressurist says is irrelevant. It has not been helping get the rest of my Ache & fatigue down. It has only been helping with local pains. Those are not my main problem & don’t seem to influence the Ache, as I had thought. The treatment has become strenuous & time-consuming. I have developed an aversion to it. So I want to reduce or even take a break. I want her to listen to me more and not talk so much, make suggestions, but not so much advice. I need to find a good wording for that. Maybe "I don’t feel properly understood. And I do generally know what’s best for me. (We need to listen to my body more?)"
As I’m having to do a similar co-dependency confrontation, supported by my psychologist, with my wife, not easy at the moment, all anxiety stuff, so good that Yoga Nidra’s around…
Supps to CHANGE: Wash capsule machine…
SELF-PHYSIO (click for details): 2h04 ✅.
twist-stretch 5’, Timing, cold shower (5’), neck 1+ 2’, neck 2 2’, teeth 2x2’, yoga/stretching 5’, Yoga Nidra 1h20’, hunchback-pillow 10’, palpate 1’, belly 3’, back 7’, left foot on/under right knee/cross-legged 5’,
plantar/calf stretch 5’, loins 2’, jolt-jump 1’, gums 2x30’’, V ‘, marionette-hang 1’, mirror 2’, shaking dance 1’, breath-hold 11’, RR x2’, HWB 3’, workout 7’, red heat 3’, hand-exerciser 3’
23-24 Supps: PLANNED/TAKEN TODAY (click for details): NEW/IRREGULAR/CHANGED: Nd 1 again didn't help I don't think, Arg, B3, Ri: 0 today. Pe & Ps 0? (23 REGULAR: B2 1x.1g, B12 5mg/2m, C 2x.5g, Cr 3x1g, D3 1/w, Ga: ~2g(4), Gi2, Gu:~1.2g(4), Ma3x2, Nc: 2.5g(5, incl. 2x1/night), Ω3, P5:1, Pf4, Pq1, Q10 2x1g/d, Qc 2x.5g/d, Rs2, Ro2, Sa1, Se1, Sr 3x2x125k, The.2g, Zn1)
Abbreviations resolved under blog references
What-when-details: Updated Dec 3rd (before: see the reference post)
/19:00 A1/2 “19:00” PF#1 Cr#1 mal#1+2 P5P/2Rho/0Se PQQ Ω3 = “PfCr Ml P5Ro Pq.Ω3”
/21:30 A3 “21:00” PF#2 .6 GABA&.4glu#1 NAC#1 = "PF+.6GaGlu+Nc
/01:15 A4 “23:00” PF#3 .3 GABA&.3glu#2 = “PF+.3Ga/Glu”
/03:35 B1 “01:00” PF#4 NAC#2 SRP#1+2 = “PF+Nc+Sr2”.
(0 B2 “03:00” 0mumijo#2 (teeth))
/06:35 B3 “07:00” (30’) Q10#1 quercetin#1 resveratrol#1 SAM-e1, “Q1QcRsSa” + ?NAC#
/07:10 0 B4 “Up”: 1xNADH
/10:20 MEAL! C1/2 “+30’=Meal” Cr#2 .6GAB#3,the2,gink#1, NAC#2,Zn=B2,C,Cr.GaThe Gi n’AC/Z
/10:40 C3 “08:00” .1gB2,.5gC#1, NAC#3+ “B2CNc”. Nut > grain-Meal:
/14:55 C4 “11:00” (+2h/) ma#3+4 Nd#? SRP#3+4 — MlNdSr (1st meal till: ?)
D1 “13:00” Pectin and/or psyllium with meal, no other supps.
/15:45 D2/3 “15:00” .5gC#2,Cr#3,.3GA#4/glu#3,gink#2,mal#5+6,NAC#5, “C.Cr.GiGa/Gu.MaNc”
/18:45 D4 “17:00” (“meal/acids+2h”) Nd#?.Qc#2.Q10#2.Rs#2,Sr#5+6. “Nd&Q1QcRsSr2” >19:15
eve:
“18:00” Prepare: 1) Complete & C changed supps. 3) Complete ##. 4) Tally irreg. 5) Remove “v” 6) Cut template 7) Save this 8) Paste 1x & unhide & paste 2nd (+1 to date and ##). BATCHES OK?
(Nov 4th: 18:00 vitamin B12 5mg methylcobalamin s.c.; next: Jan 4th.)
The day's 16 compartments (10', plus 5-10' making capsules)
Arg: Capsules? Pf: A1+3+4+B1, (0 Nia+) C:C2,D3 Cr: A1+C1+D2, Ga: A3,a4,C1,d2, Glu: A3,a4,d3, Gi: C2,D3, (0Gly: A1+C2+C3), Mal: A2+C4+D3, Nc: A3, B1,C1,C3,D3, Q1QcRs: B3,D4 Sr2x: B1,C4,D4
SINGLE: A2:P5/Ro/(0Se)(Ω/Pq:meal), (B2:0mu), B3:Sa (B4: 5NADH) C2: B2+Th+Zn. (D1:Pe)
Development:
Research-search today:
Lessons in self-care #155 Co-dependency confrontation may be tough, but it’ll help in the long run.
Reasons to be cheerful #168 Gonna get stronger 
this way, I spose… 
- My blog references, e.g. abbreviations, supp chart/overview
- My “How to symptom track & trigger hunt”
- Next up…: Oct/Nov-Summary (& add to blog-summary); finishing off the treatment list…