About 3 years ago I suffered a severe nervous breakdown, was in a very dark place for sometime, was scared to death and felt so ill with fear that it almost became too much to bear.
With the help of my Husband, Son, Psychiatrist, medication and some changes to my lifestyle, I very slowly managed to crawl out of that "dark place of fear" but even now I have vivid dreams, flash backs, will never forget the awful daily feeling of intense fear, and I have a dread of it coming back one day.
Does anyone else go through similar feelings to past events, would how I feel be described as PTSD?
What you are describing does sound like PTSD. They are many of the things I've gone through and I have been diagnosed with PTSD. I suggest talking to your dr about it as soon as possible. There are ways of dealing with it. I went to group and one on one therapy. It was very helpful. I rarely have any flashbacks or anything else. I've been where you are and there is help out there.
Feel free to contact me if you have any other questions or want to talk.
Thank you so much for your reply, I am over the breakdown now but still have underlying anxiety issues, which seem to all be about how I felt in the past as I have no other worries in my life, fibro doesn't worry me, just gets on my nerves ha ha !
We moved house in the end, a house I used to love, had many lovely dinner parties/family parties etc there, memories of my 25 year old son growing up there but sadly the memories of the isolation and fear meant that I grew to hate the house! I just to knew, in order to properly get well I had to get out.
I gave up work too, which has helped too, especially as I now have fibro. But oh how I dread that dark place!
I haven't spoken to anyone about it for over 2 years so perhaps I should.
Lucy, thank you for the friend request. I don't know why it didn't occur to me. People tell me I'm a good listener if you ever want to talk about any of it.
I also have been diagnosed with PTSD and am currently in therapy for the anxiety issues. What you're describing certainly sounds like thats what it is. For me, talk therapy and EMDR therapy (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing) have been incredibly helpful. As a matter of fact, I haven't had to take my anti-anxiety meds (klonopin) for at least a month now. I am so happy with that. Also that constant dread is finally gone! I hope you get to feeling better soon :)
many thanks for your reply, am pleased that the therapy has helped you, I haven't actually spoke to anyone about how I feel for about 2 years so perhaps it's time I did as it's not going away by itself!
It's not all the time but occasionally I do have such vivid dreams that take me back to 3 years ago.