Good morning, my fellow fibo folks. I am so thankful that I have found an accepting place to express myself. I will apologize ahead of time for the following emotional expression, but as I have yet to find a counselor, you all get to stand in!
I am finding today to be a difficult day. My fibro symptoms are worsening. I aM hoping this is just a flare and not an indication of what I can count on experiencing everyday. I am feeling very depressed about life at the moment. My financial situation has taken a turn for the worse, which always causes me distress. I have had my home for sale for nearly a year and have lowered the price as low as I can go. Despite working three jobs, I am barely making it paycheck to paycheck.
I feel like a failure on many fronts. Financially, for obvious reasons. I feel like a failure because at 35 my body feels like it’s falling to pieces. I work two of the most thankless professions… Teaching high school and respiratory therapy. I enjoy my work, but both leave me feeling emotionally and physically exhausted. Due to my financial situation, I often work 6 days a week. I have no time to do the things I enjoy or to take time for me.
I am at a loss. Most days I can paste on a smile and get though. But every now and again, grief and depression slam me to the floor. Today is one of those days. Thank you all for being my sounding board. I feel that many here will understand. I am not looking for sympathy, only needed to let my feelings out.
Hi Laurie, my goodness, you have a lot on your plate, that is for sure. With all you have going on, it is especially important to try to be kind to yourself and also to take time for yourself. What types of things are you doing to help relax or manage Fibro symptoms? For me, I try to keep the stress low (not always possible) but when I find myself really stressed I focus on being extra kind to myself. I take warm baths with Epsom salt and maybe lavender candles. I do extra deep breathing exercises. I put on my ocean sounds which I love and use visualization. Also, have you talked to your doctor about how you are feeling? Maybe a medication adjustment is in order to help with the Fibro symptoms. Please keep us updated on how you are doing. Hugs!!!!
Thank you Auburnm. Baths are one of the most relaxing times I have, even if I can only squeeze in a short one. I have a doc appointment scheduled for a week from Monday. I was started on Cymbalta a month ago when I was diagnosed. It has improved my mood, but has done little for the other symptoms. I think I also need to speak to a therapist. I am really having trouble coping with my fibro diagnosis and the stress of everyday life. I appreciate the advice!
i know you are looking for sympathy but sometimes that is comforting and sometimes a pity party as well. i admire you , though for still doing your work as hard as it is for you. I hope you will be able to find a balance that will work better for you. Meantime i send you all the best and HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS
What you are doing is amazing, despite your problems! What can I say, I have no answers really, just keep on as best you can, and be extra especially kind to yourself in the times you can.
I can relate to everything you are saying. I'm sorry things are so difficult right now. I've been in a flare for what feels like over a month now and it is causing my mood to be more down than usual. Are you able to get enough sleep? Is sleep restful for you? I find when I am down like this, sleep is often a huge factor and the fatigue contributes to my mood. It sounds like you work very hard and financial stress is one of the worst stresses in the world! (in my opinion). It can definitely make dealing with Fibro more difficult because stress makes the symptoms worse. I don't have any advice to offer, just emotional support and I will be sending good thoughts your way! What I try to keep in mind is...we are strong and keep conquering despite our obstacles.