I just started taking Gabapentin and now I'm up to 300mg, 3 X's a day. I feel groggy after taking it and I think it has helped a little already, but I have strong pain that goes right up my spine to the back of my head. This pain causes migraines. I have been using flexiral at bedtime and this helps with overall pain, tremedously, but I feel like a walking cloud while I"m on it. I like taking it durning the day, because it helps me overall with stress and pain. But I don't like driving while taking it and I don't know how proficient I am if I was working while on it. I'm still woriking that out because it is still something new to me.
I don't have much to say about your financial matters. I don't have to argue with mortgage company, I rent and well my battles are going to about finding shelter and food. I am losing my apt. That's just where my pain has lead me. I don't want to blame the pain, but I need more time to get better if I can get better. I don't know I will ever get on top of the pain again, like I did before. As long as the stressful idea keeps coming up, that I will have to keep getting moved around and having to listen to everyone else, if others want me to do things that I know go against what I know I can do, then I can't see where the stress will ever go away, and my chances of getting over that stress are slim. I'm right there in it, the stressing ideas, these ideas that don't want to let go of you. I'm trying to get by them.
Then today I just read this on a google blog, " People who are well liked: 1. Ask for nothing, 2. Laugh at themselves, 3. Listen with interest, 4. Rarely complain, 5. Inspire others, 6. Teach, 7. Give
I am doing all of these things but the pain and mental fog, and emotional fog, slow me down and make me feel like I'm sandpaper or an old rusty brilo. I should feel like a soft cloud, or a flower, and what comes out of my heart is pain.
Stress can grip you and it can tear you apart. It is ripping through me right now. I don't know my next steps, I almost get an idea then, the idea is gone. I'm not looking to hurt anyone. I'm just trying ot live a normal life. Fibro pain and fog has pulled me down again. I am just finding it harder to get on top of it.