Oh Mo, I'm so so sorry. So much to go thru in so short of a time. So much loss. No wonder you're having a problem with depression.
Finding a good shrink really is important for you and yeah, I know, it's tough. What I used to do when I couldn't afford to see them was to either go only 2 times a month or go for shorter sessions (not as good as the first option.) I hope you can find someone. Could you call your last shrink and ask her if she can recommend anyone to you? Did she work out of a group of shrinks? If so maybe one of them could recommend another person. I do know how tough it is to trust someone again after you've had a good shrink. It's not a fun transition, and sometimes the person you pick doesn't work and you have to move on. But I'm betting there's someone out there with whom you can connect, once you're in the mindset to make the transition.
I totally agree about your bravery and brilliance with the videos. I'll bet a lot of people who are lurkers agree as well. You've helped a lot of people with those videos and that's no small feat.
Yea it is a bit uncomfy but having my wrist stabilized is helping esp at work. Opening all the doors to check the rooms is hard on my hands but I open with my right and the brace helps that. I still have Mueller ankle braces and elbow braces, love them.
Luckily the nurse called me back, gonna call me tomorrow when I have the scrips ready.
I used to be ok with taking meds but when I was given the wrong meds to take and dangerous meds that the FDA no longer wanted in the market I lost all my faith in meds so now I am extremely cautious. I do not EVER want to feel what i felt on coming off those bad meds again. Plus I like knowing where my pain is originating from. The meds mask where the pain really is and without them I am able to better get a hold of the area that hurts. being without pain meds for so many yrs is just a routine I am comfortable with.
Glad you've gotten your anti-depressants all straightened out!
Your meds story is shocking and frightening. How in the Hades did you end up being given bad and dangerous drugs? Well, now I understand your extreme reluctance to be on pain meds. What a terrible story and experience. It really burns me to think that someone gave you those meds.
And yes, I also totally agree that getting to the root of the problem is what I also want. It's frustrating that so little is still known about fibro, so all we're doing is masking the pain, as you say. What worries me is this: what if fibro IS damaging our bodies in a way that doctors cannot see? Like on a cellular level? I really would prefer meaningful treatment to pain masking. We're just not there yet. I hope we get there...and soon.
All I know is I was taking a migraine med for about 3 yrs before the NP told me that the drug makers asked the FDA to pull the drug because it acts like cocaine does in the system. I had become dependent on this drug and didn't know why until then. I was instructed to stop taking the drug but the weaning off period was like going thru detox for drug addiction. I was very sick for a few wks and because I had been taking it for so long my body needed more time to get it out of my system. I NEVER want to experience that again and vowed from that point on that any drug a doc give me I will research to wits end FIRST then compare it to other meds, find out what's being said about it on a higher level like with the FDA and such, find out the makers of the drug, the side effects and users reviews, that's before I take a med then when I take it I monitor my side effects to detail keeping track of them and the moment a side effect lasts too long I discontinue the drug. . .it's a process and yes that drug scared me to the point where I will no longer trust docs to give me meds safely and nothing can make me less cautious anymore, unfortunately
Dickwad. Lol. One of my fave words. He certainly sounds like he lives up to his name. Maybe they could TRY to consider paying his salary or he can fricking wait til October!! Omg give me his number! lol. I am SO up for it!
LOL I know who the guy was because he's the only guy who works at the front desk, so seeing his small frame and slicked back hair in my head made me smile. . .