it will be 8 weeks this tuesday im sick and tired of being sick and tired im tired , wore, out, i still only have 4 fingers out of 10 i can use real good, i cant sleep good, my knees hurt , my wrists hurt i have a headache and im already tired of the discrimination comments of im lazy, im selfish, i want someone to take care of me, someone told me today that i could work with 4 working fingers and i told them that was only 1 percent of the issue and that they need to quit judging me without knowing the whole story cuz i am not selfish i never have been and never will be, i dont want someone to take care of me its why i applied for ssi so i could take care of myself with a little help, im by far lazy cuz if i was i wouldnt do what i can around here until i go into remission, i worked i paid into ssi and stuff hell i tried to work and failed at it badly and i have the proof that i tried i have from the social security office itself all the jobs i ever had and thats how i found out it was 31 with 29 of them being me getting fired cuz of concentration issues, and other major things that a business wont put up with so nope im not selfish, im not lazy, and i dont need taken care of i just need a bit of help now and then and i feel sorry for the jerks who judge people for things that r beyond their control i actually do more to help other people than concentrating on my issues that is not selfish if someone is being abused i do whatever it takes to help them, if someone is sick i do whatever i can to help them even if its just talking on the phone like i did with a friend tonight, im not selfish or lazy and i cant stand it when someone accuses me of something im not