for 5 yrs i have been diagnosed with fibro, chronic fatigue, sjogrens, psorasis -- and all side problems ibs, abdominal pain, headaches, fainting, breathing issuses, and the list goes on and new health issues present themselves
i had a job 6 figures and got fired due to inability to keep a regular work schedule --of course due to my illnesses --- worked there for 23 years - devastating does not describe how losing my job felt
no one from work bothered 2 call, email, or contact me in any way ---i guess no real friends there
no other friends from other areas of my life
my side of the family is non existent in my life - i call my mom 1 every month just 2 chk up on her --- but honestly i dont care
my husbands father and brother call every so often and ask about me
my husband - pooor guy -- has done alot for me --- however my illnesses have done drasticly bad things 2 our relationship -- he deserves so much better than me
he hates being my care taker
we are more roomates now than husband and wife -- sex??? what is that
financially my illnesses are killing us -- bankruptcy seems to loom ahead
all our dreams are gone - what we wanted to do and how we wanted to live
i talk to a pyschologist every week - because i really dont see a reason to stay here
all those people who say --use your mind to overcome the pain ---- it is what u eat and drink -- these people cant have serious case of this illness - because neither works -- -i want to scream at them
my pain is so great u cant get up to go to the bathroom, i cry every day from pain. i want to go to sleep at night and not wake up
yes i am on drugs and tried many different ones over the past 5 years seen multiple doctors and many
specialists
no real success
applied for disability
,,,,,,, so why continue