I haven’t posted in a while as I have been “stuck”. My doctors for the past few years treated my symptoms with antidepressants , anxiety meds, and heavy duty Narcotics. On state insurance now I have to fight to get treatment. I sunk in to this fear and depression that I went from a good job, family, and a decent life-to now living in a homeless shelter and soon the street.
I am weak, tired, and always in pain. This is awful torture. The hardest part is feeling alone and haveing to put on a strong face when inside I am crying all the time.
qball. your situation sounds so difficult. I am so sorry to hear this. You are not alone, and you do not have to be strong always here. Let yourself cry once in awhile. Are you still in Pennsylvania? I would like to take a look online to see what types of assistance might be available for you. Are you on medications now? Or are you needing to go without?
One suggestion is if you have a church nearby, it doesn't matter what denomination, make a visit and see if a pastor can speak with you. You don't need to talk about god -- just let someone listen for awhile while you tell your story and all of the challenges you have been facing. It might help just to have a real person hear all of it from you. And, of course, please use the hotline anytime you need to: 1800 273 TALK. I am hoping there are better days ahead for you, qball.
I am so sorry to hear this! Dancermom listed some wonderful suggestions. Please try and talk to someone that can help you. Try the helpline. Don’t give up. There’s no doubt this syndrome is extremely difficult. My heart goes out to you. You are not alone, even though it seems that way. I will be thinking of you and hoping your situation improves for you.
Best wishes and many hugs,
Melyn
As I read your posts it touched me and is also the fear I have. I have been put on SS disability and thankful for two other small pensions I have put into. None of us can be guarenteed that we will not end up on the street.
I hope you have friends or family that can be help to you.
I know at times life sucks but there has to be more out there that you can tap into for support.
Wishing you the Best and hang in there. Keeping the mind busy is the number one goal each day even if it is hard to try to look at anything that is positive.
Ron
Hey there qball0529, are you still on this site??? Please get back to me. Im pretty new on this site and I just saw your message. My heart goes out to you. Please respond!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Evening!
Please send me an email direct in here. Being another guy I hope you can share and trust me. I am a licensed counselor but due to my Fibro am on Disability. I actually sought out professional help since I had great insurance so I have gone the same gamet. I totally understand what your emotional state is at this time and be assured it will get better. Hopefully you can still find a place to access a computer.
Ron