Hey all you lovelies!!!
first of all, I'm so sorry I'm not on here more often. I hope to catch up a bit within the next few weeks, because there's no work for our two week break <3
I was having a rather massive low these past few months. Depression, Fibro flaring, being sick for three months straight, feeling burnt out... stuff. BUT
I'm getting a lot better already and I might finally have an explanation for it all (well, the worse-than-normal low)
I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis today, after my general doctor told me, my thyroid hormones were fine in my blood test. When I told him I suspect it MIGHT be Hashi, he refused to do more tests, telling me I'm fine.
WELLP.
I went to an endokrinologist (is that even a word? A hormone-specialized doc) and she took another blood test, more detailed, and an ultrasound of my throat and LOOK who actually has a hypothyroidism.
I always feel weird for being so damn happy about "having" something new, some new illness. But it just is such a relief to me to actually have something to blame my condition on.
The depression and lack of energy, paired with horrible mood swings and lack of self-control (I even bitched at my boss for nothing) made me lose my job position (i still HAVE a job, same place, I just got taken out of my group and am now a "reserve pool employee" (same working hours & same pay, but MUCH less responsibility))
and now... I know it's not "me". It's not MY fault, I didn't fail at what I love doing. I'm not a bad person. I'm just sick. With hope of getting better!
Well, at least a bit!
I am putting a lot of hope into the hormonotherapy/my new medication. I know I will never be "healthy", but I have hope that this will pull me back out of this horrible flare of depression and MAYBE help me lose some weight and gain more energy.
Best thing about it: I can try out my medication at home with my parents and in a relaxed environment (because I'm always REALLY scared of taking new meds, especially ones that might make my palpitations worse)
And the even BETTERERER thing?
It's freaking christmas and I'll be home with my parents and CHRISTMAS!
good food and presents and I feel like a 5-year old, being all excited 8D
I wish you all a wonderful christmas holiday and some nice and relaxed days and presents and awesome food and much much much time to relax and enjoy the holiday season!
no winter cold can take away my jolly
I wish you a merry jingly!