Just feeling very blah today! It's only 7:24am here in Va. and my day really stinks! Most days I can deal and find a positive attitude, but today I am struggling to find one. My lower back hurts, my shoulders hurt, my energy level feels to be nothing, I have no desire to do anything and my sleep was pretty much very little to none. Not that any of this is unusual, it's just that I am having what seems to be a really hard time. I don't think I have felt like this since before I was diagnosed and found out what was wrong with me. I usually don't have deep depressed type feelings but today they are deep, as in black.
I joined this group to be able to help others with my positive attitude and to be able to spill my guts if you will. I am tired, so tired of talking about it because the truth is people don't understand and I don't want their sympathy. The one person I want to understand more than anyone is a jokester. That is how he deals with his feelings and other things. It really gets on my nerves, some of the comments that he makes. Not meaning to cause any harm, it's his way of dealing.....but it drives me crazy!!!!
So sorry you're having a rough one. Please don't be so hard on yourself. It's okay not to be perfect. No one can be upbeat all the time even without Fibro. There will always be people who don't understand. Wanting them to understand will just tie you in knots & cause more pain. Personally, for me, sarcasm helps. :) I hope your day gets better.
Yeah, I had a joker too in my life. & it does get on one's nerves.
Have you told this fella that it drives you BONKERS? That you would prefer for him to speak plainly & truthfully? That sometimes it DOES hurt? That he isn't fooling you with his quick quips & sarcasm? & what about that HAHAHA after he says something? AAARRRRRGH!!! It took all I could do, to keep from slapping that smirk off that face! A mantra (I must not slap, I must not slap, I must not slap), it kept me from doing any harm.
My son didn't understand about what I endure until he sprained his back, & for the next week he kept saying to me, "How do you do this?, How can you do anything? Mom could you help me put my socks on"?
We who have Fibro put up with enough as it is. I don't know if this person is your Honey or just a friend... put your foot down, don't hold it in, let the frustration out.. You can always say "STOP, I have had ENOUGH, I don't want to HEAR IT ANYMORE"!!! .
Sorry you are having such a bad day. Fibro sucks but not all days are bad ones. Tomorrow will be better Keep sharing with us. Keep being positive and uplifting. Have a wonderful tomorrow!
Thank you all so very much! Yesterday was a much better day other than waking up feeling exhausted (nothing new) so I played hooky and went back to bed for a couple more hours. Felt much better when I woke the second time.
Luna01, yes this is my honey (husband of 14yrs). For the most part he has been my biggest supporter and my best friend. But yea, all the joking and goofing sometimes is just enough! And when I do tell him he seems to get his feelings hurt. But at times I just don't care! The other thing he does is jump to conclusions all the time because I am, in his words, "a conversationalist" and it seems to amaze him when I don't know something or I tell him that no that wasn't discussed or that no I really didn't talk to anybody at work today. You read between the lines here...I am a contractor and I work in the mans world (did when I met him too). I no longer really do the physical part of my job anymore, I am more office support (in a trailer) at the job site. Our crew consists of 4 Americans and 4 Hispanics of which only one is a female and then myself. The stress of that alone is ENOUGH! Don't need the rest of the bullsh**!!!
Ok, rant over for the day! Or at least right now. It is actually a pretty good day so far. Of course it is only 7:39am in Va. So the day is young.
Keep sharing with us. Keep being positive and uplifting. Have a wonderful tomorrow!