You rant all you want to. You are allowed to here!
I'm so sorry for the loss' you have experienced. And it seems like all of these things have happened so fast. All since July? Sweetie, just sit back and allow yourself some time to process all of this.
If your pain is mainly fibromyalgia pain you might ask one of your doctors about the LDN (Low Dose Naltrexone) that some have talked about on here. I started taking it a few weeks ago. I am still at a minimal dose, which will be increased in incriments, but am having great relief from it. Just a thought for you.
http://med.stanford.edu/snapl/research/ldn.html
Keep your chin up Shawna. And congratulations to you for continuing through school through all of this. You can do it! Here's to getting stronger!
Kitty