Crazy thoughts?

Has anyone thought crazy? I don’t know if it’s a mid life crisis thing or my health that is making me think crazy and so frickin emotional .
Example, my son lives about 4 hours away. His wife’s family is only about 30 minutes away. They are going to Hawaii in June and I wasn’t even asked if I want to watch my 8 months old grand daughter. I was the one who was there for 2 months after she was born because she gad colic so bad and my daughter had to have a emergency c-section. It really hurt my feelings.
My husband tells me that I can’t go when I want to because of money. We aren’t hurting that bad. I would never jeopardize our finances. Anyway now I’ve even thought about leaving my husband of 30 years. I’m tired of being told how to feel, what I can and can’t do.
My grand daughter isn’t going to be close to me and it’s killing me. I never imagined that I wouldn’t be a constant in my grand daughters lives. My other one is in louisana. She knows who I am because my daughter constantly includes me.
Sorry for rattling on but I’m so frustrated and confused.

Sorry to hear your hurting so much distance between families is so hard. I hardly know my family because of distance. Have you thought about using skype or web cam then you can see your granddaughter more often. I no its not the same as being in the flesh but it might help you bond. Good luck take care xx

I think my son doesn’t know how to say no. When my daughter in laws mom asked I think my son said we will talk about it or say no I’m going to have my mom do it because she never gets to watch her… Just a bad situation. I guess I’m going to have to learn how to be not as important in her life. I’m so frustrated and of course I feel guilty about being sick

It’s so hard because my son and I are so close and it really hurt my feelings. That and I always said if Tim McGraw ever came to our area I would go. Well my husband and I were on a little trip about 3 months ago. I heard he was going to be here in may. My husband told me I couldn’t get the tickets because the trip was my tickets. Really? They are 100 bucks. I waited until we had the money and I got the tickets. Eww made him mad. So now I’m selling the tickets. We aren’t poor and I never ask for anything. Everything is getting to me.