2023-09-24 Sunday - recovery? Like yesterday. However at 17:30 my body feels “ill”, unspecifically. And 1’ of a worship song per zoom that I love and then 3’ live, really nice, without pain rising to 5-6. New & weird. RR/supp changes? Like yesterday, but then the RR before and after the night dip seems to reflect an inexpicable tension.
What … worked / went wrong … today:
Above, main focus, remained good, habits were better today.
Habit encouragement… :
Time (= stress) management:
Keep blog time up: (
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Keep forum time down:
Jump out of hamster wheels:
Self-treatments:
Wall sits: 
Balance exercises:
Prepare supps by 15:00: , but 17:45
Back exercises by 16:00: 
Encapsulating by 17:00: yup, 16:00 , whilst wife fed guinea pig.
White/blue lip massage / puckering: , FWIW.
How was I today?: Feeling 80%-ish (), energy today (), sleep Saturday night , sleep Sunday night - but had an inexplicable tension an hour before I’d wanted to get up, for which a cold shower once again worked brilliantly! 1-2 bites ().
Today working mainly on … time management, self-treatments RR, energy.
RR: HIGH BP PERIODS: 10th-12th ✅, 13th ❌, 14th ❌✅, 15th ✅✅, 16th ✅ night ✅, but headache, 17th: ✅(✅), 18th (✅)(✅), 19th ?✅, 20th ❌❌. 21st (✅)(✅), 22nd: (✅)(✅), 23rd ✅✅, 24th: ✅(✅) RR 180/103 at 20:25 cos of pee urge and a small work problem I was solving, but felt calm, and did go down to 135-145 quickly. However the sleep dip only reached 110 at 1:30 and <100 from 2-5, and then back up a bit to >120 at 6. So I'm wondering if this was all a result of whatever that was at 20:25, or what lead to it, I'd think music/service and cats were too much, altho it didn't feel like it I can't make out anything else...
|12:45:00|125|79|64|half an hour after getting guinea pig grass|
|12:46:00|121|70|65|This is how I feel it was yesterday too|
|12:48:00|119|70|66||
|13:11:00|134|94|66|gardening, not tense (cf. SBP?), but strain/Ache (cf. DBP?)|
|20:21:00|180|103|64||
|20:30:00|164|96|59||
|20:35:00|143|92|55||
|20:36:00|153|96|59||
|20:37:00|141|89|56||
|20:38:00|134|88|64|arrh|
|20:39:00|143|90|56||
|20:41:00|146|94|60||
|22:24:00|138|92|57||
|23:30:00|132|77|68||
|23:31:00|139|87|65||
|23:32:00|142|84|62||
|00:26:00|121|80|64||
|00:27:00|124|77|59||
|01:30:00|112|78|63||
|02:41:00|96|61|60||
|04:02:00|98|64|65||
|05:22:00|109|76|64||
|05:47:00|120|81|63||
|06:04:00|123|74|58|still tension|
|06:13:00|145|88|59|Directly after cold shower and getting dressed|
|06:15:00|126|72|57|back down very quickly|
|07:24:00|136|87|58||up, loo urge
|07:29:00|143|90|56||
|07:30:00|135|83|58||
1) Since Aug 9th BALANCING PEM VS. PPA: post exertional malaise (✅) vs. post postural ache ✅. Stiffness ✅. No TT, talking 15' ➔ 80%/3-4 ❌. Music 1' ➔ 60%/5 ❌. White lips60-80%? (❌). Exhaustibility "90%" ❌ and sleep ✅, click for details:
EXHAUSTIBILITY today: “90%". Changed on Aug 23rd: Energy was up to 18-20(-24)% (TT 5:1, workout possible) since June 21st 2023 (and new symptoms better) from new circadian rhythm, but kept going down to 10% (TT 0-2 games) from monthly triggers, see #3 Triggers. Today's ENERGY profile moderately slow, with "14h rest"), 2h very slow, 0h slow, 0h medium/quick
SLEEP (click for details): 7h55, up 7-8x (1h), all deep, plus 15' shallow which I've counted as part of the last sleep break before the successful cold shower to get the tension down ✅. Longsleeve at first till damp, then again from 4:30? cos of sore throat, despite feeling warm, except feet, so need onion layering at night again. 5:35 spontaneous heart thumping, "strain" from nothing, dream/thought not troubling, RR 120 (after pee and 5' forums). Pee pain of regularly 3 more urethra than bladder(?). Everything else OK ✅ ➔ getting up: 80%/2 ✅.
Sleep 22:25-7:20. -5:46 10’. Hmm, 5:59 can’t get back, still heart thumping. Cold shower? Have to anyway, let’s see. RR before and after, worked!: -7:20
Sum: 1h35+7h20-(5+5+5+5+5+5+30=)1h = 8h55-1h =
2) Watching "monthly" TRIGGERS, esp. of exhaustibility. Excitement (= stress) ✅: Music!? - New extreme reaction inside of a minute in the evening, tried several times with breaks, varying a bit, all much-loved, first via zoom, then "endured" 3' live, which I enjoyed, was peaceful, seemed to reduce tension - until it ended, where the pain shot back up to 5, so slowly back home, longer break, cats. My RR values then and before and after the night dip <100 may have been a reflection of that "excitement"/tension. A new one. Click for list...."
(1) JAB#3 (on Nov 7th 2022) caused MCAS / histamine problems like the first 2 till around July. Esp. ENERGY DOWN further to (10-)15-20% (max.), but more slow energy. Each jab -5%.
(2) Jan: TCM recommendations for a few weeks
(3) Feb: ~3% of levothyroxine pill Feb 24th till Mar 23rd: more energy, but lost appetite and weight and sleep, antihistamine back up to 10mg to curb T4-insomnia & histaminey symptoms (stopped cos causing nauseous sinus headaches & painfully dry mouth).
(4) Mar: inkling of Covid, negative, but cough, appetite, night sweats…
(5) Apr: cancer checking ending with weird onco,
(6) May 20th… 17 stress triggers, till end of May: 8-12%, seizures May-June every 10d.
June 21st: circadian rhythm Better to 18(-24)% a few days, but mostly back down to ~10%:
(7) July 19th-24th: 3 garden bird deaths
(8) July 31st-Aug 6th uro exam and methylene blue trial.
(9) Aug 9th… severe vertigo, checking, back to minimal blood meds.
Sep 12th: These have been stable for quite a time: Histamine/MCAS symptoms: Nauseous sinus burning headache: 0% , tongue burning: 10% day, 20% night . Watching “monthly” TRIGGERS (updated Aug 23rd 2023) that have brought up additional symptoms at least once a month and are continually bringing energy down from 20% to 10%.
3) DOCS: Last update Sep 12th: VERTIGO/BP: Reduce BP spikes. ONCO/URO: No uro cancer. Evening fluey feeling, coughing a lot, not eating that much, easily satiated, slight weight loss.... now that all sounds familiar, like the inkling of my wife's "CoV" in March, however no temperature and no night sweats. My wife is nagging for me to try someone else on this to either think up a new idea or get a little further with the dangling praps-cancer issue. Click for details.
Still no other explanation for the “B symptoms” Feb/March (Mar 29th: night sweats, cough plus appetite & weight loss) so back to T4 + CoV. feedback from onco appt. Apr 24th is STILL pending.
4) UNDER CONTROL ✅ (attention necessary (✅)).GI: My wife has something, turned into half a day of diarrhea, so maybe my ill feeling is actually still something GI or a big bug, and a tiny bit of strange wind at 18:00 and later shows that, as well as the fever feeling without temperature, with CoV negative. :
1) GI, pee, local pains, weather, dry mouth well under control. Details...
except GI: stools loose0% , appetite , pee pain: 0p1-2 , lower back unrest . Jaw: 2 new fillings June 23rd were enough, solved for the time being, but keep spaces free. Weather: SUN / WIND , dry mouth (day and) at night at least not hurting/sticky ().
2) Seizures and esophagus blocks fairly under control - click for details. Last SEIZURES: Sep 19th? (1). Aug 9th, vertigo day: (2). July 17th (2), Increase to 2-weekly in May-June was stress, histamine, and less GABA, before that monthly. Last ESOPHAGUS BLOCKS: Sep 16th! 11th. Aug 31st, 26th & 8th, July 23rd & 16th, May 31st, Apr 4th.
Last focal seizures: Sep 19th?? or so. Aug 9th: 13:42 & 15:40 (after vertigo). Aug 1st: 4-5x seizure-ish. July 25th: seizure-ish 3-4x. July 17th: 18:30 19:55 after thunderstorm. July 7th seizure-ish 4x. Increase in May-June was stress, histamine, and less GABA: Jun 23rd: 11:30 12:15 14:00 15:06, 2 before, 2 after antihistamine, maybe from the confused night, taking sleep meds too late and more?? Jun 16th 20:05, June 6th 13:45 & 14:35. May 25th 17:40 & 21:00, maybe from higher histamine and not enough GABA lately, May 14th 9:00 and May 13th 20:00 from stress I think, but I have also reduced the night time GABA praps too much. Apr 16th 13:25, Apr 15th 22:00 (GABA too late plus cold type symptoms = histamine), Mar 31st 19:00 (too little GABA, too strenuous meeting), Jan 15th 10:40 (from a pee urge, only 2nd “wave”). Jan 14th 23:58 (no trigger, praps missing out on .6g GABA Friday). Jan 5th (after being scolded for being hyper). Dec 11th: 1x. Nov 21st: 2x.
Last esophagus blocks: Generally, mindfulness to be extremely careful and stop eating, spread supps & meal (length up to 2h), whenever there’s the slightest pressure. Sep 16th seemed scary. Sep 11th: unusually eating a peach, which I thought’d be easy, wasn’t tho. Aug 31st supps again. Aug 26th: drinking supps with buttermilk instead of almond milk, Aug 8th: carrot, then chocolate. July 23rd cos distracted by the Kami stress. July 16th I was concentrating on testing if hazelnuts increase my nicotinic acid flush with my 3rd meal, and disregarded a slight throat pressure, which went totally wrong, was the last straw for an esophagus block, so had to get it out, lots came out, incl. supps, and needed to wait quite a bit afterwards. (June 6th narrowly avoided.) May 31st, argument made me forget to concentrate on a small carrot. Apr 4th: Carrot, got it out quick. Mar 26th just the supps. Mar 23rd: Tiny bit of parsnip I think it was, had to get it out, had no patience to massage longer than 5-6’. Mar 13th (roughly) same as: Feb 26th: midday: block not waiting long enough with muesli after supps. Feb 20th eve: block from I think carrots resolved with massager. Feb 5th: From C-supps. Jan 19th: Sometimes do use massager a while to make sure. Jan 17th: I can take my B supps and then go to bed again atm. Jan 8th: Block after evening supps, maybe from twisting. Jan 7th: Testing if twisting before, while & after pills & food increases esophagus blocks Jan 6th: Slight blocks. Jan 5th: Medium block in evening. About 5x small blocks from pills around end of the year. Dec (20th, 15th) 11th (9th,) 1st, Nov 30th 2x, 29th 2x, (28th,) 24th, 22nd, 20th. Powder blocks in funnel if it’s too much in one go…
SELF-TREATMENT & SUPPS optimal, stable, but necessary - NEW Sep 11th (started around 8th): Stopped eleuthero and reduced ginkgo to 2. Still NADH sometimes, lots of Ω3 (cos not enough from olive oil), plus passiflora, magnolia & 0.3g GABA at daytime instead of night. Aug 6th: 40 supps, 435€/m +20€/m cps. Last changes see before Aug 22nd. Next: LDN!
SELF-PHYSIO: Always OK, see before Aug 22nd what I now always do when needed. Next: jaw-joint?
Supps Aug 6th: 40 supps (was 42), costs 435€/m (was 470) +20€/m cps. Sep 11th (started around 8th): Stopping eleuthero and reducing ginkgo to 2 is reducing BP. Sep 1st: NADH, passiflora, magnolia and more GABA to daytime. Last changes see before Aug 22nd next: theanine divided up into 2x0.1g, maybe LDN, probably not creatine, colostrum or ATP again. For details on the lists, with dosing batches by times and tubs see before Aug 22nd:
No ‘research’ today
Quality of life: 85%, “Feeling well”: 70-80%.
Lessons in self-care:
a) Found how to sit on the window sill first thing to look at the sunrise/sky without twisting my torso too much, so that the supps can slip down my esophagus properly, and without risking to fall. I need to put one foot up on the outside ledge, but the other deep down in the room, for safety. Worked today at least.
Reasons to be cheerful:
a) Still butterflies around, even in the cold mornings. Never been more than a few, I’m a bit disappointed I couldn’t attract more insects.
b) Nice to keep seeing the blackbirds back, flurrying scaredy-cat, but also bathing regularly,
c) Squirrel chattering in the cherry, but didn’t stay.
d) Every one minute stint of robin singing wakes hope of more.
e) Duey came up inside of a few inches of my sticking out foot. But I know if I get him some sunflower seeds, he’ll be gone.
f) His wife came too after, and kept on longer, and I was actually able to sneak in and back out to put the seeds out a yard away from me, and then she came. I noticed when she comes on the balcony that her eyes seem to have more white around the pupil than Duey has, and definitely if she has I think she may have a black stripe at the bottom edge of the folded wing, like Duey and other pigeons have, but if she has it’s hidden. Difference between pigeons or between male and female? Have to check with the other pair once they’ve finished breeding and they’re not chased aways so much.
Simplified: Trying to get apples from a bag to a tray was a trial, so I put the bag in the tray, that was easier…
Foggies: … before I did that I dropped one apple, during these 5’ I dropped 6 things altogether and had to pick them up, so Ache up to 5, altho I was feeling good beforehand, felt like “doing stuff”…
Development: Look before Aug 22nd for more details. Click for links to "biggest successes" (after June 18th 2023), "summary" (on June 14th 2023), jab side effects, foods, blog references, e.g. abbreviations, & guideline for symptom tracking & trigger hunting
Entry changes (after June 19th 2023)
Biggest successes (after June 18th 2023)
Summary of fibro 2020-2021, jabs 2022 and first half of 2023