2023-10-31 Tuesday - recovery?: Slightly better with less CVD med side effects? LDN?: 20th 0.5mg: Increasing tomorrow.
What … worked / went wrong … today:
Splitting up the CVD meds may be working.
Habit encouragement… :
Time (= stress) management: Blog earlier 
, forums less , jump off hamster wheels , 3rd meal 18:00-19:00 - no, but shortly after 19:00 which is good enough considering 1st meal was much later from sleeping later.
Self-treatments: Horse stance , balancing .
How was I today?: Feeling 80-90%-ish (), energy today (, relatively), sleep Monday night 
, sleep Tuesday night (bit short, but not too tired Wednesday).
Today working mainly on … time management , energy, esp. via LDN , keeping spirits up () - wife and I working together on that, having crying times, but also deliberating our plan.
(V)LDN
Dosage: Oct 1st ~0.07mg evenings, 8th 14:20 0.125mg, 9th-15th 10:00 0.125mg. 16th-19th 10:00 0.25mg. 20th- 0.5mg
VLDN 
for:
- Energy up from 10% to 18%: for activities - yep, walking: up from 5’ to 30’ - yep, listening: up from 3’ to 15’ () - , TT
fine motor skills and available short term energy , stiffness - yep, shorter recovery times - yep, all constantly . But 
: still yellow/white face, black eye rims and white lips. - Pain: overall Ache - yep, local: lower back () - OK, less - yep, hangover - nope.
- Muscles: eyes = vision () - slightly better, bladder: pee frequency & urge () - better.
- Sleep (taking it in the mornings): feel better in breaks, waking up better, more awake () - .
Nothing really since Oct 18th , except 20th: hangover 3h.
How to continue: Yes, like thought I’ll try doubling LDN tomorrow and see if it compensates them, as well as spreading the “candy”.
CVD med effects?:
24th dreadful. 25th not taken. Re-start with BP speck 26th. 1-2mg early 27th seemed not particularly good, but might’ve been too little sleep. 28th Worse after less sleep. 29th Better after longer sleep. 30th Worse after 2.5mg (or >2 at least) despite sleeping almost 8h. 31st: Starting to spread the “candy” (candesartan) over the day in about 0.5mg specks worked, I think I felt it a little after 2nd meal, but that got better again.
1) Since VLDN Oct 1st: PEM VS. PPA: post exertional malaise when I use all of the extra energy (✅), hardly post postural ache ✅. Stiffness ✅. TT 4:0 (moving 30%, talking 30%, counting 0%) ➔ 80%/3 ✅, gardening/moving ➔ 80%/3 (✅), talking 15' ➔ 80%/3 ❌, music 5' ➔ 70%/4 ❌. White lips 80% (❌). Exhaustibility "82%" ✅ and sleep (❌) - 6h47, up 4x (1h20, of that 61' plant identifying), all deep ✅, but taut from too intense plant identifying, click for details:
EXHAUSTIBILITY today: “82%". Changed on Aug 23rd: Energy was up to 18-20(-24)% (TT 5:1, workout possible) since June 21st 2023 (and new symptoms better) from new circadian rhythm, but kept going down to 10% (TT 0-2 games) from monthly triggers, see #3 Triggers. Today's ENERGY profile moderately slow, with "6h rest", 2h very slow, 2h slow, 5h30 medium, 30' quick
SLEEP (click for details): 6h47, up 4x (1h20, of that 61' plant identifying), all deep ✅, but taut from too intense plant identifying ❌, everything else OK ✅, 80%/2 ✅, ➔ getting up: 80%/2 ✅.
Sleep 23:00-
0:05 17’ fl15’
1:05 13’ fl10’
1:26 51’ Traumeel on underarm spot 10cm from left elbow and rib area under/behind left shoulder, after pressing/massaging quite a bit all evening. Taut from too much plant identifying. 6 30’ fl21’
4:25 19’ fl15’ .7:07 20’ fl15’ Sum: 1h+7h07-(17+13+51+19=)100’ = 8h07-1h20 =
2) Watching "monthly" TRIGGERS, esp. of exhaustibility. Excitement (= strain rather than stress) ✅: Sorrow, lack of sleep was OK. Click for list, incl. Sept summary added Oct 2nd...."
(1) JAB#3 (on Nov 7th 2022) caused MCAS / histamine problems like the first 2 till around July. Esp. ENERGY DOWN further to (10-)15-20% (max.), but more slow energy. Each jab -5%.
Made me stop cryotherapy/acupressure and acupuncture from Dec on!
(2) Jan: TCM recommendations for a few weeks
(3) Feb: ~3% of levothyroxine (T4) pill Feb 24th till Mar 23rd: more energy, but lost appetite and weight and sleep, antihistamine back up to 10mg to curb T4-insomnia & histaminey symptoms (stopped cos causing nauseous sinus headaches & painfully dry mouth).
(4) Mar: inkling of Covid, negative, but cough, appetite, night sweats…
(5) Apr: cancer checking ending with weird onco,
(6) May 20th… 17 stress triggers, till end of May: 8-12%, seizures May-June every 10d.
June 21st: circadian rhythm Better to 18(-24)% a few days, but mostly back down to ~10%:
(7) July 19th-24th: 3 garden bird deaths
(8) July 31st-Aug 6th uro exam and methylene blue trial.
(9) Aug 9th… severe vertigo, checking, back to minimal blood meds.
Summary (Sep 12th): These have been stable for quite a time: Histamine/MCAS symptoms: Nauseous sinus burning headache: 0% , tongue burning: 10% day, 20% night . Watching “monthly” TRIGGERS (updated Aug 23rd 2023) that have brought up additional symptoms at least once a month and are continually bringing energy down from 20% to 10%.
(10) Sept 4th bladder exam 3 days of ‘screaming’ while peeing (again 18th: seldom stabs few days), then a UTI and recurred for 3 days each, 22nd bladder pain and “2nd” UTI. 12th: CoV-type symptoms: fluey Ache, cough (recurred 18th a few days), belly discomfort, feverish, temperature till 16th, up 11x that first night, moving difficult. From before 20th: binge work stress. 21st: feverish, histaminey, 22nd: severe pain in right upper abdomen for a few days. 24th: felt ‘ill’ and realized I couldn’t hear music any more. (27th: New GP OK.). 18th: stopped CVD meds again for the time being.
Oct: 1st VLDN 0.07mg, 9th 0.125mg, 16th 0.25mg. 17th: Complex filling - only 1-2 days recovery. Listening 15’ to very selected music improving. 20th LDN 0.5mg, 23rd: back to candesartan 4mg, atorvatastin 20mg, ezetimibe 10mg.
3) DOCS: Oct 30th: GP#2 have organized an onco appt Jan 8th, so in 3 months, but only 20 mins away. Last update Oct 24th: Complaint about the lax onco doc after exactly 6 months. Oct 23rd: Cardio: bloods, and convinced me to re-start the CVD-meds. Oct 11th: GP#2's office checked back about onco, GI & bloods. Sep27th: Wife's GP will get me a cancer appt., ask about GI. Click for details.
Oct 21st (see 20th) pee frequency / urine retention med: I used to drink only 1.5L/d before fibro, plus lots of yogurt and raw veggies. Whist I’m not sure when that changed, 80/d supp capsules and my increased thirst and dryness are the reasons for drinking 3L/d and so for peeing more, so no sense in taking meds to artificially reduce my peeing. (Pulling my 3rd meal supps and the 1L almond milk forwards to 19:00 didn’t help for sleep breaks, and thirst and headache at night).
Still no other explanation for the “B symptoms” Feb/March (Mar 29th: night sweats, cough plus appetite & weight loss) so back to T4 + CoV being the reasons I guess. Feedback from onco appt. Apr 24th is STILL pending.
4) UNDER CONTROL ✅ (attention necessary (✅) - elbows a bit whilst on a walk with my wife, but not as much as usual, and just twisting them for a few minutes each they were OK again, no knee problems. Worked on jaw a little again. At 1:30 Traumeel on underarm spot 10cm from left elbow and rib area under/behind left shoulder, after pressing/massaging quite a bit all evening. The underarm spot isn't a problem, but the rib makes me feel iller):
1) GI, pee, local pains, weather, dry mouth well under control: Details...
except GI: stools loose0% , appetite , pee pain: 0p1-2 , lower back unrest . Jaw: 2 new fillings June 23rd were enough, solved for the time being, but keep spaces free. Weather: SUN / WIND , dry mouth (day and) at night at least not hurting/sticky ().
2) Seizures and esophagus blocks fairly under control - click for details. Last SEIZURES: 1x/m - focal seizures Oct (26th-)27th (1). Oct 18th/19th (3). Sep 19th? (1). Aug 9th, vertigo day: (2). July 17th (2), Increase to 2-weekly in May-June was stress, histamine, and less GABA, before that monthly. Last ESOPHAGUS BLOCKS: 1-3x/m - Oct 21st. Sep 30th, (25th,) 16th, 11th. Aug 31st, 26th & 8th, July 23rd & 16th, May 31st, Apr 4th.
Last focal seizures: Oct (26th-)27th 10:00 (seemingly seeing an ex-flat mate), seizure-ish 2x 26th. Oct 18th 17:50 (going on to busy street) & 20:15 (emotional music that could reach me). 19th: 11:00 table tennis. Sep 19th?? Aug 9th: 13:42 & 15:40 (after vertigo). Aug 1st: 4-5x seizure-ish. July 25th: seizure-ish 3-4x. July 17th: 18:30 19:55 after thunderstorm. July 7th seizure-ish 4x. Increase in May-June was stress, histamine, and less GABA: Jun 23rd: 11:30 12:15 14:00 15:06, 2 before, 2 after antihistamine, maybe from the confused night, taking sleep meds too late and more?? Jun 16th 20:05, June 6th 13:45 & 14:35. May 25th 17:40 & 21:00, maybe from higher histamine and not enough GABA lately, May 14th 9:00 and May 13th 20:00 from stress I think, but I have also reduced the night time GABA praps too much. Apr 16th 13:25, Apr 15th 22:00 (GABA too late plus cold type symptoms = histamine), Mar 31st 19:00 (too little GABA, too strenuous meeting), Jan 15th 10:40 (from a pee urge, only 2nd “wave”). Jan 14th 23:58 (no trigger, praps missing out on .6g GABA Friday). Jan 5th (after being scolded for being hyper). Dec 11th: 1x. Nov 21st: 2x.
Last esophagus blocks: 1-3x/m. Generally, mindfulness to be extremely careful and stop eating, spread supps & meal (length up to 2h), whenever there’s the slightest pressure. Oct 21st: sweet potato. Sep 30th: sweet potato. (Sep 25th: Sweet potato went down after 20-25’.) Sep 16th seemed scary. Sep 11th: peach. Aug 31st supp. Aug 26th: supps with buttermilk, Aug 8th: carrot, then chocolate. July 23rd distracted. 16th distracted. (June 6th narrowly avoided.) May 31st carrot, distracted. Apr 4th: Carrot. Mar 26th supps. Mar 23rd: Parsnip. Mar 13th & Feb 26th: muesli after supps. Feb 20th: massager helped. Feb 5th: supps. Jan 19th: massager sometimes. Jan 17th: B supps and back to bed is OK atm. Jan 8th: supps. Jan 5th-7th small. About 5x small blocks from pills around end of the year. Dec (20th, 15th) 11th (9th,) 1st, Nov 30th 2x, 29th 2x, (28th,) 24th, 22nd, 20th.
SELF-TREATMENT & SUPPS optimal, stable, but necessary - NEW Oct 16th: Silymarin 2x.5g now, LDN! - starting 0.07mg 20:00, 9th on 10:00: 1.25mg, 16th on 10:00: LDN 0.25mg, 20th 10:00: 0.5mg. Aug 6th: 40 supps, 435€/m +20€/m cps. Last changes see before Aug 22nd.
SELF-PHYSIO: Always OK, see before Aug 22nd what I now always do when needed. Jaw-joint end of Sept.
Supps Aug 6th: 40 supps (was 42), costs 435€/m (was 470) +20€/m cps. 16th: Silymarin 2x.5g now, LDN 0.25mg. Sep 27th: Starting around the 20th I brought ginkgo back up to 3, seems good, so I reckon the eleuthero was a problem. Sep 11th (started around 8th): Stopping eleuthero and reducing ginkgo to 2 is reducing BP. Sep 1st: NADH, passiflora, magnolia and more GABA to daytime. Last changes see before Aug 22nd next: theanine divided up into 2x0.1g, probably not creatine, colostrum or ATP again. For details on the lists, with dosing batches by times and tubs see before Aug 22nd:
‘Research’ today?
Only bits’n’bobs.
Quality of life: 85%
Lessons in self-care:
a) Very pleased to have thought up to spread the dose over the day.
b) In the evening and night a bit strained, I need to jump out of the plant identifying wheel soon.
Reasons to be cheerful:
a) Plant/fungi life:
aa) Saw a brilliant mushroom plate sized patch yesterday with 3 tiers of them, what a work of art.
ab) The balcony trough now has even more mushrooms.
ac) More and more identifying, and got advice for a plant too.
b) Bird life: Wife and I listened to a robin for a few minutes on our evening walk.
c) Animal life: Harley is so cute. Whether we lose him or not, we are enjoying interacting with him, partly as farewell, trying to give him as good time as possible, spoiling him a bit. He’s ripping around at a bit of paper at the moment, after having been fed up a little more than the past few ‘meals’, playful and coltish as ever. I suggested to give him some more liquid care stuff, my wife getting her head around it now wants to give it a try - working well up to now.
d) Plant, bird & animal life: -
e) Human life: Nice walks and talks with wife.
f) Environment: Much more sun than was harbingered.
g) Body: Nice to be back with daily table tennis and my body coping with the small dose ‘candy’.
Simplified: -
Foggies: -
Development: Look before Aug 22nd for more details. Click for links to "biggest successes" (after June 18th 2023), "summary" (on June 14th 2023), jab side effects, foods, blog references, e.g. abbreviations, & guideline for symptom tracking & trigger hunting
Entry changes (after June 19th 2023)
Biggest successes (after June 18th 2023)
Summary of fibro 2020-2021, jabs 2022 and first half of 2023