2023-11-22 Wednesday - recovery?: bad a lot of the day. CVD med side effects? bad. LDN? (Nov 19th on 1x1.5mg): only came thru in the afternoon.
What … worked / went wrong … today:
The atorvastatin I’m pretty sure mucked up quite a bit of the day.
Habit encouragement: time management (✅), self-treatments ✅.
Time (= stress) management: Blog earlier 
, forums less , jump off hamster wheels , 3rd meal 18:00-19:00 
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Self-treatments: Horse stance , balancing .
How was I today?: Feeling 85-90%-ish (), energy today (, relatively), sleep Tuesday night , sleep Wednesday night .
Mainly working on time management (), energy with LDN , keeping spirits up .
(V)LDN: Nov 19th- 1x1.5, Nov 17th-18th 2x0.5, 16th (1+1)x0.5, Nov 10th (2+1)x0.5, 1st 2x0.5mg (starting with Oct 1st ~0.07mg). It's improved mainly energy ✅ (22%) & heaviness ✅ incl. for walking 60' ✅✅, fine motor skills ✅, stiffness ✅ (10%), recovery time ✅, Ache ✅, pains ✅, but not my paleness ❌ or listening ❌. No more side effects ✅. Click for details on dosage and symptoms:
Dosage: Oct 1st ~0.07mg evenings, 8th 14:20 0.125mg, 9th-15th 10:00 0.125mg. 16th -19th 10:00 0.25mg. 20th-31st 0.5mg, 1st- 2x0.5mg, 10th (2+1)x0.5. 16th (1+1), 17th 2x0.5, 19th 1x1.5.
VLDN 
for:
=1) Energy up from 10% to 22%: for activities , walking: up from 5’ to 60’ , listening: difficult (), TT 
fine motor skills and available short term energy , stiffness , shorter recovery times , all constantly . But 
: still yellow/white face, black eye rims and white lips.
2) Pain: overall Ache - except at night cos of shorter sleep breaks, local: lower back , less , hangover .
3) Muscles: eyes = vision () - OK-ish, bladder: pee frequency & urge () - OK-ish.
4) Sleep (taking it in the mornings): feel better in breaks, waking up better, more awake ().
5) 
Nothing really since Oct 18th , except 20th: hangover 3h.
Additives: capsules with TiO2 (HPMC with SiO2).
CVD med effects?: About an hour or more when I increase too much, first from the BP med, then the lipid med. Nov 22nd: again dreadfully Achy, pretty sure from atorvastatin. Nov 13th started atorvastatin for lipids 1mg/d. 6th: reached 4mg/d of BP. Spreading pulverized BP specks increasingly over the day since Oct 31st is working, whilst the small starting dose from 24th on was dreadful, and even amounts of 1-2.5 mg once a day took all LDN energy.
24th dreadful. 25th not taken. Re-start with BP speck 26th. 1-2mg early 27th seemed not particularly good, but might’ve been too little sleep. 28th Worse after less sleep. 29th Better after longer sleep. 30th Worse after 2.5mg (or >2 at least) despite sleeping almost 8h. 31st: Spreading the “candy” (candesartan) over the day in ~0.5mg specks worked, I think I felt it a little at ~14:00 once tho. 1st: spreading is working again, again felt it a little at ~12:00. 2nd: and again, no effects. After that sometimes nauseous sinus headache in the morning if I take a bit too much, but resolves quick, so trying to keep the specks higher in the daytime. I’ve reached the 4mg/d since Nov 6th.
1) Since VLDN Oct 1st: PEM VS. PPA: post exertional malaise when I use all of the extra energy (✅), hardly post postural ache ✅. Stiffness ✅. TT 2:1? (but if so: Thursday too, just worse off) (moving 20%, talking 20%, counting 0%) ➔ 80%/3 (✅), gardening/moving ➔ 80%/3 (✅), talking 15' ➔ 80%/3 ❌, music 5' ➔ 80%/3 (✅) - better. White lips 80% (❌). Exhaustibility "80-78%" ✅ and sleep - 7h13, up 4x (45') ✅, and "postpostural" Ache, "PPA", has normalized back to 2 (✅), click for details:
EXHAUSTIBILITY today: “78-80%". Changed on Aug 23rd: Energy was up to 18-20(-24)% (TT 5:1, workout possible) since June 21st 2023 (and new symptoms better) from new circadian rhythm, but kept going down to 10% (TT 0-2 games) from monthly triggers, see #3 Triggers. Today's ENERGY profile moderately slow, with "6h rest", 0h very slow, 3h slow, 6h medium, 1h quick
SLEEP (click for details): 7h13, up 4x (45'), all deep. ✅, everything else OK ✅, 80%/2 ✅, ➔ getting up: 80%/3 ✅.
Sleep 22:55-6:58 -45-50’ Sum: 1h05+6h58-(45)’ = 8h03-50’ =
2) Watching "monthly" TRIGGERS, esp. of exhaustibility. Excitement (= strain rather than stress) ✅: A bit cos of wife's problems, a bit cos of the health bills I forgot to send to insurance in time. Click for list, incl. Sept summary added Oct 2nd...."
(1) JAB#3 (on Nov 7th 2022) caused MCAS / histamine problems like the first 2 till around July. Esp. ENERGY DOWN further to (10-)15-20% (max.), but more slow energy. Each jab -5%.
Made me stop cryotherapy/acupressure and acupuncture from Dec on!
(2) Jan: TCM recommendations for a few weeks
(3) Feb: ~3% of levothyroxine (T4) pill Feb 24th till Mar 23rd: more energy, but lost appetite and weight and sleep, antihistamine back up to 10mg to curb T4-insomnia & histaminey symptoms (stopped cos causing nauseous sinus headaches & painfully dry mouth).
(4) Mar: inkling of Covid, negative, but cough, appetite, night sweats…
(5) Apr: cancer checking ending with weird onco,
(6) May 20th… 17 stress triggers, till end of May: 8-12%, seizures May-June every 10d.
June 21st: circadian rhythm Better to 18(-24)% a few days, but mostly back down to ~10%:
(7) July 19th-24th: 3 garden bird deaths
(8) July 31st-Aug 6th uro exam and methylene blue trial.
(9) Aug 9th… severe vertigo, checking, back to minimal blood meds.
(-- Summary --) (Sep 12th): Stable for quite a time: Histamine/MCAS symptoms: Nauseous sinus burning headache: 0% , tongue burning: 10% day, 20% night . Watching “monthly” TRIGGERS (updated Aug 23rd 2023) that have brought up additional symptoms at least once a month and are continually bringing energy down from 20% to 10%.
(10) Sept: BLADDER EXAM, COV-TYPE, WORK, ABDOMEN, MUSIC PAINFUL, HARLEY, WIFE: 4th bladder exam 3 days of ‘screaming’ while peeing, recurred around 18th, UTI and recurred 2x3d, 12th: CoV-type symptoms: fluey Ache, cough (recurred 18th a few days), belly discomfort, feverish, temperature till 16th, up 11x that first night, moving difficult. From before 20th: binge work stress. 21st: feverish, histaminey, 22nd: severe pain in right upper abdomen for a few days. 24th: felt ‘ill’ and realized I couldn’t hear music any more. (27th: New GP OK.). 18th: stopped CVD meds again for the time being. Harley losing tooth, appetite and weight was the main trigger from September on. In Sept. the big work project, and wife’s mood (better in Oct).
(11) Oct: BETTER FROM LDN, WORSE FROM CVD MEDS: 1st VLDN 0.07mg, 9th 0.125mg, 16th 0.25mg. 17th: Complex filling - only 1-2 days recovery. Listening 15’ to very selected music improving. 20th LDN 0.5mg, 23rd: back to candesartan 4mg, atorvatastin 20mg, ezetimibe 10mg, 24th dreadful, 26th re-started with BP specks, increasing to 4mg, with only slight side effects.
Nov: From LDN stable energy 18->22% and stiffness down to 10%. 15th starting to get slightly above 4mg BP without side effects, starting atorvastatin specks dulled, proprioception, fatigue.
3) DOCS: Nov 16th: Report from onco doc came, claiming it was me that'd stopped coming, and that my lymph nodes, liver and spleen sizes would need to be checked next, but no cancer is detectable to date, he put the eosinophilia (at the time) down to fibromyalgia or (MCAS) intolerances. Nov 8th: Urologist: IPP/Peyronie - but I'm still looking for natural alternatives, and I believe the cystoscopy injured me, whether I have a genetic predisposition or not. Nov 4th/5th: See 5th for bloods of Oct 23rd: need to keep up most supps plus try to re-start all 3 CVD meds. Oct 30th: Onco appt scheduled for Jan 8th - distant time, but place near enough. Last update Oct 24th: Complaint about the lax onco doc after exactly 6 months. Oct 23rd: Cardio: bloods, and convinced me to re-start the CVD-meds. Oct 11th: GP#2's office checked back about onco, GI & bloods. Sep27th: Wife's GP will get me a cancer appt., ask about GI. Aug 7th: Very painful uro bladder exam and bloods was followed on 9th by a vertigo attack - connected? Click for details.
Oct 21st (see 20th) pee frequency / urine retention med: I used to drink only 1.5L/d before fibro, plus lots of yogurt and raw veggies. Whist I’m not sure when that changed, 80/d supp capsules and my increased thirst and dryness are the reasons for drinking 3L/d and so for peeing more, so no sense in taking meds to artificially reduce my peeing. (Pulling my 3rd meal supps and the 1L almond milk forwards to 19:00 didn’t help for sleep breaks, and thirst and headache at night).
Still no other explanation for the “B symptoms” Feb/March (Mar 29th: night sweats, cough plus appetite & weight loss) so back to T4 + CoV being the reasons I guess. Feedback from onco appt. Apr 24th is STILL pending.
4) UNDER CONTROL ✅ (attention necessary (✅)) - DAO before 200g baked beans prevented a histaminey "burnt" tongue! - Been meaning to test that for ages and should check that with all high histamine foods now. 1 focal seizure on around the 20th:
1) GI, pee, local pains, weather, dry mouth well under control: Details...
except GI: stools loose0% , appetite , pee pain: 0p1-2 , lower back unrest . Jaw: 2 new fillings June 23rd were enough, solved for the time being, but keep spaces free. Weather: SUN / WIND , dry mouth (day and) at night at least not hurting/sticky ().
2) Seizures and esophagus blocks fairly under control - click for details. Last SEIZURES: 1x/m - focal seizures Nov 20th(?) (1,) Nov 13th (1), 5th (only 2x GABA at night!). Oct (26th-)27th (1). Oct 18th/19th (3). Sep 19th? (1). Aug 9th, vertigo day: (2). July 17th (2), Increase to 2-weekly in May-June was stress, histamine, and less GABA, before that monthly. Last ESOPHAGUS BLOCKS: 1-3x/m - Oct 21st. Sep 30th, (25th,) 16th, 11th. Aug 31st, 26th & 8th, July 23rd & 16th, May 31st, Apr 4th.
Last focal seizures: Nov 20th (1) I think it was, after food fell off my spoon into a bowl… Nov 13th 20:30 slight cos of wind noise. 5th very slightly seizure-ish at TT, then 20:50 (cos only 2x GABA at night, not compensated). Oct (26th-)27th 10:00 (seemingly seeing an ex-flat mate), seizure-ish 2x 26th. Oct 18th 17:50 (going on to busy street) & 20:15 (emotional music that could reach me). 19th: 11:00 table tennis. Sep 19th?? Aug 9th: 13:42 & 15:40 (after vertigo). Aug 1st: 4-5x seizure-ish. July 25th: seizure-ish 3-4x. July 17th: 18:30 19:55 after thunderstorm. July 7th seizure-ish 4x. Increase in May-June was stress, histamine, and less GABA: Jun 23rd: 11:30 12:15 14:00 15:06, 2 before, 2 after antihistamine, maybe from the confused night, taking sleep meds too late and more?? Jun 16th 20:05, June 6th 13:45 & 14:35. May 25th 17:40 & 21:00, maybe from higher histamine and not enough GABA lately, May 14th 9:00 and May 13th 20:00 from stress I think, but I have also reduced the night time GABA praps too much. Apr 16th 13:25, Apr 15th 22:00 (GABA too late plus cold type symptoms = histamine), Mar 31st 19:00 (too little GABA, too strenuous meeting), Jan 15th 10:40 (from a pee urge, only 2nd “wave”). Jan 14th 23:58 (no trigger, praps missing out on .6g GABA Friday). Jan 5th (after being scolded for being hyper). Dec 11th: 1x. Nov 21st: 2x.
Last esophagus blocks: 1-3x/m. Generally, mindfulness to be extremely careful and stop eating, spread supps & meal (length up to 2h), whenever there’s the slightest pressure. Oct 21st: sweet potato. Sep 30th: sweet potato. (Sep 25th: Sweet potato went down after 20-25’.) Sep 16th seemed scary. Sep 11th: peach. Aug 31st supp. Aug 26th: supps with buttermilk, Aug 8th: carrot, then chocolate. July 23rd distracted. 16th distracted. (June 6th narrowly avoided.) May 31st carrot, distracted. Apr 4th: Carrot. Mar 26th supps. Mar 23rd: Parsnip. Mar 13th & Feb 26th: muesli after supps. Feb 20th: massager helped. Feb 5th: supps. Jan 19th: massager sometimes. Jan 17th: B supps and back to bed is OK atm. Jan 8th: supps. Jan 5th-7th small. About 5x small blocks from pills around end of the year. Dec (20th, 15th) 11th (9th,) 1st, Nov 30th 2x, 29th 2x, (28th,) 24th, 22nd, 20th.
SELF-TREATMENT & SUPPS optimal, stable, but necessary - NEW From Nov 19th: LDN 1.5mg mornings. Nov 4th on: nattokinase 1x0.1g, from 15th 2x0.1g. Aug 6th: 40 supps, 435€/m +20€/m cps. Last changes see before Aug 22nd.
SELF-PHYSIO: Always OK, see before Aug 22nd what I now always do when needed. Jaw-joint end of Sept.
Supps Aug 6th: 40 supps (was 42), costs 435€/m (was 470) +20€/m cps. From Nov 4th on: nattokinase 1x0.1g, from 15th 2x0.1g. Oct 16th: Silymarin 2x.5g now, LDN Oct 1st- 0.25mg, 9th- 1.25mg, 16th- 0.25mg, 20th 0.5mg, Nov 1st- (1+1)x0.5mg, 10th- 2x0.5 and 1x0.5mg, 17th- 2x0.5, 19th- 1x1.5mg. Sep 27th: Starting around the 20th I brought ginkgo back up to 3, seems good, so I reckon the eleuthero was a problem. Sep 11th (started around 8th): Stopping eleuthero and reducing ginkgo to 2 is reducing BP. Sep 1st: NADH, passiflora, magnolia and more GABA to daytime. Last changes see before Aug 22nd next: theanine divided up into 2x0.1g, probably not creatine, colostrum or ATP again. For details on the lists, with dosing batches by times and tubs see before Aug 22nd:
‘Research’ today - Bits ‘n’ bobs.
Quality of life: 90%
Lessons in self-care: It’s an up and down testing at the moment, but interesting how down in the morning is followed by up by the afternoon… (Tomorrow too…)
Reasons to be cheerful:
a) Plant/fungus life:
aa) Loads of leaves, esp. from the giant cherry, which I now know I can leave on our little meadow. I’ve already seen that the recent compost has crumpled up already, it was full 2 days ago, now there’s loads more space. My wife is sad that the trees are losing their leaves, whilst I am happy how the garden is changing and the green meadow is now pretty yellow from the leaves. Things I never used to see. Same in the neighbourhood on our walks, being able to name and distinguish all kinds of plants, understand their problems makes me “see more” and makes me happier. ab) Instead of being annoyed about people who just put lots of stone stuff in their front gardens to save their energy/time, I think I’ll start to just take them for what they want to be, altho they are very foreign styles to what I’m doing.
ac) Still taking stock of the flowers that are still blooming.
ad) Regularly checking the decoration around the house, found really big maple leaves in varying colours in the neighbourhood, which I’ve arranged in a half circle, and am watering the moss that doesn’t get enough of all the rain cos I put it in the cellar windows.
b) Bird life:
ba) female chaffinch, haven’t seen either sex in the garden before, didn’t have a clue what it was, but greenish grey back and two white longitudinal stripes on the wings helped identify it. Roughly like this one, but thicker stripes:
bb) Blackbird softly singing on wheelbarrow with beak closed. I thought that explains why it sounds soft until I had a look on youtube and saw that a blackbird can sing loudly with food in its beak! They call it “Alert”-Blackbird, but mean “siren”.
c) Animal life: Squirrel hiding hazelnut in my conifer deadwood on the pavilion!
e) Human life: Forgetting my health bills and getting up early made me tidy my room (fairly…) properly, and do some housework too…
g) Body: The bad periods in the mornings make me enjoy the good periods in the afternoons even more instead of taking them for granted.
Development: Look before Aug 22nd for more details. Click for links to "biggest successes" (after June 18th 2023), "summary" (on June 14th 2023), jab side effects, foods, blog references, e.g. abbreviations, & guideline for symptom tracking & trigger hunting
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