2024-01-24 Wednesday
Summary:
- LDN (3mg):
: Energy 30% , talking 2h! , walking / cycling 60’ (). - Triggers: Work mails (). Long conversation with friends .
- Cheer: Talking with mate very nice! (Incl. helping him practice to re-image a death nightmare!) Dawn Robin! Harley’s weight! Looking at and smelling food!
(V)LDN: Jan 16th- 3mg increasing energy to 30% (Slowly up from Oct 1st ~0.07mg. Click for effects/dosage...)
Forgetting Dec 23rd caused big energy dip immediately, so there’s no drug level, it works day to day. (It’s constantly and
and reliably improved mainly energy (from 10%), heaviness, walking (from 5’), fine motor skills, stiffness (from 70% down to 10%), recovery time, Ache, pains, sleep , possibly from Dec on drinking only 2L/d which is helping sleep, and possibly reducing histamine and/or tannin from walnuts , but not my paleness (yellow/white face, black eye rims and white lips) or listening ability/sense 
. Last side effect was wobbliness, listening problems and Ache on day (1 and) 2 of 2mg (Dec 12th), before that “hangover” on Oct 20th .) .)
Dosage: Oct 1st ~0.07mg evenings, 8th 14:20 0.125mg, 9th-15th 10:00 0.125mg. 16th -19th 10:00 0.25mg. 20th-31st 0.5mg, 1st- 2x0.5mg, 10th (2+1)x0.5. 16th (1+1), 17th 2x0.5, 19th 1x1.5, Dec 11th 1x2, Dec 27th 1x2.25mg, Jan 10th 1x2.5mg, 16th 1x3mg.
Additives: white capsules with TiO2 (HPMC with SiO2).
1) MAIN ISSUES: talking 2h 18:15 to 20:05 ➔ 70%/5 ✅, music 30' ➔ 80%/3 (✅), white lips 70-100% ❌, TT not available, moving (cycling 60', "shops" 2x10') ➔ 80%/4 (❌), SO post exertional malaise (✅), "post postural ache", "PPA", esp. after sitting fairly still in the restaurant for 2h (masked, whilst the others were eating) (✅), stiffness ✅, exhaustibility "70%" ✅ and sleep 7h35 (NSDR 5') ✅ ("PPA": 2 ✅). Energy profile: medium, with "4h rest", 0h very slow, 2h slow, 10h medium, 0h quick. Click for past months...
EXHAUSTIBILITY: Stably better from LDN since Oct 1st at 20%+, but improvement only if I stop atorvastatin for a few days.... Up before from new circadian rhythm, but kept going down to 10% (TT 0-2 games) from monthly triggers, see #2 Triggers.
SLEEP (click for details): 7h35, up 4x (20'), NSDR 5', all deep ✅, everything else OK ✅ (22 issues under control), 80%/2, ➔ getting up: 80%/2 ✅. Click for details...
Sleep 23:45-7:40:, Sum: h15+7h40-(4x5=)20’ = 7h55-20’ =
2) Watching "monthly" TRIGGERS, esp. of exhaustibility. Histamine foods: only walnuts ✅. Strain: working (✅), talking with mate ✅. (Jan 11th-18th: contrast dye (doc thinks excipients), OK, except some nausea.) Click for list...."
(Nov) 7th 2022 caused MCAS / histamine problems like the first 2 till around July. Esp. ENERGY DOWN further to (10-)15-20% (max.), but more slow energy. Each jab -5%.
Made me stop cryotherapy/acupressure and acupuncture from Dec on!
2023:
(Jan) TCM recommendations for a few weeks took my appetite.
(Feb) ~3% of levothyroxine (T4) pill Feb 24th till Mar 23rd: more energy, but lost appetite and weight and sleep, antihistamine back up to 10mg to curb T4-insomnia & histaminey symptoms (stopped cos causing nauseous sinus headaches & painfully dry mouth).
(Mar) inkling of Covid, negative, but cough, appetite, night sweats…
(Apr) cancer checking ending with weird onco,
(May) 20th… 17 stress triggers, till end of May: 8-12%, seizures May-June every 10d.
(June) 21st: circadian rhythm Better to 18(-24)% a few days, but mostly back down to ~10%:
(July) 19th-24th: 3 garden bird deaths
(Aug) July 31st-7th uro exam and methylene blue trial. 9th… severe vertigo, check in clinic no result, so trying blood meds again. Hindsight: Painful uro exam on 7th, stiff neck from bird deaths, twist-stretching too much.
(Résumé) These triggers are “monthly” and kept bringing energy down from 20% to 10%.
(Sept) Histamine/MCAS symptoms (headaches 0%, tongue burning 10-20%, down. Further painful bladder exam injured (‘screaming’ 3d) & scarred me, caused UTI (2x3d). CoV-type infection (12th 10 days) (hantavirus??), work stress, abdomen pains, 24th-: listening to music painful, guinea pig, wife, CVD meds bad.
(Oct) (V)LDN helping a “lot”, Complex filling OK, CVD meds bad, BP low and slow OK.
(Nov) Atorvastatin difficult.
(Dec) Guinea pigs, atorvastatin, boss, often post postural Ache, DAO: baked beans tough, better with less sauce and more DAO, but walnuts OK without now. 28th: car trip to kids and and only 2x20’ bad for several days. NYE stress.
2024:
(Jan): (1st) DAO: 0x: 100g baked beans with reduced tomato sauce for 2nd meal caused tongue to burn a bit for half an hour, 3x: 150g for 3rd meal caused no burnt tongue or histamine reaction at all, despite the addition : Makes a difference! (2nd) Clearly severely woozy brain from talking during TT. (3rd) Are the seizures on Monday, pee and TT issues praps all caused by histamine from the baked beans, despite DAO preventing direct reactions, and that’s decreasing serotonin? 6th: Phone alarm music causing hurt from listening? (8th) Onco appt. better in evening, worse at night and next morning, OK by 10th. (11th) Contrast orally plus injected (doc thinks the excipients) caused a week of overall Ache, but energy and stiffness OK-ish, then (15th) fairly severe vertigo with walking problems and then 3h of vomiting, diarrhea the following day, but firm before and after, nausea and pain continuing till 18th, 7 days, then suddenly OK. Praps the oral one for gut, rather than the intravenous one (seemed not too bad in August), or praps cos too frequent/soon after the last.
(3) DOCS: ONCO: #2 (Jan 8th/11th/18th): nothing in bloods or contrast CT, believes it'll be nothing docs can find, the week of reactions likely from some excipient(s). CARDIO (Dec 11th): Rosuvastatin? Click for details.)
Oct 21st (see 20th) pee frequency better now, drinking ~2.6L/d, Jan 10th: 1.75L/d. Nov 8th: URO: IPP/PD self-massage first, maybe shockwave therapy later. (Upon the very painful uro bladder exam Aug 7th followed the vertigo attack on the on 9th - connected?
(CVD med effects: Atorvastatin Dec 16th- 0mg ✅ - postponing further trials. BP ✅. Click for details...)
CANDESARTAN (BLOOD PRESSURE): Even alone starting Oct 24th was dreadful, but spreading over the day in ~0.5mg specks from 31st on worked, up to 4mg (5) since Nov 6th, but checking RR 24th/25th too low, so down to 2mg from Dec 10th. Dec 17th: BP at night sitting down (SBP ~100), so 2mg is a good compromise . ATORVASTATIN (LIPIDS): Nov 13th 1mg/d, + caused severe fatigue/Ache, stopped 24th, re-started 27th with specks of the middle without the mantle excipients good, but 28th 1+1 and then 2mg too late caused insomnia, so earlier in the day, increasing quickly from 29th to Dec 2nd: 10mg+, un-mantled, with first only slight problems, but increasing week of 4th, so Dec 10th-13th 0mg, 14th 5mg later likely caused pain 20:00-23:00… Summary without coating: Dec 2nd-9th: 10mg+, 10th-13th 0mg, 14th-15th 5mg, 16th- 0mg). Further trials.
4) UNDER CONTROL ✅ (attention necessary (✅)): (Less/no magnolia bark, pine bark, feverfew cos of possible vertigo side effect. Less histamine/DAO. Supp costs up from 350€ gradually since LDN to now 400€.)
1) GI, pee, local pains (incl. jaw & bladder), weather, dry mouth and drinking well under control: So no details at the moment.
(2) Seizures and esophagus blocks fairly under control - click for details. Last SEIZURES: 1-2x/m - Jan 1st Dec 22nd & 2nd/3rd Nov 20th Nov 13th & 5th Oct (26th/27th Oct 18th/19th Sep 19th Aug 9th (vertigo day). July 17th. Last ESOPHAGUS BLOCK Oct 21st.)
Last focal seizures: Varying from 2-weekly (May-June, Oct-Dec) to 4-weekly (before May, July-Sept). Increases from stress, histamine, and less GABA. Jan 1st (3) Dec 22nd (?2, slight) Dec 2nd (1) & 3rd (1) Nov 20th(?) (1) Nov 13th (1) 5th (1) Oct (26th-)27th (1) Oct 18th/19th (3). Sep 19th? (1). Aug 9th, vertigo day: (2). July 17th (2), 2 slight focal seizures about Dec 22nd? Dec 3rd (1) 13:00 during TT, after feeling a bit seizure-ish, and not able to win: GABA my main suspect, cos of less sleep breaks. Dec 2nd (1) after the dizziness of 15’ of concert or from too little GABA at night. Nov 20th (1) I think it was, after food fell off my spoon into a bowl… Nov 13th 20:30 slight cos of wind noise. Nov 5th very slightly seizure-ish at TT, then 20:50 (cos only 2x GABA at night, not compensated). Oct (26th-)27th 10:00 (seemingly seeing an ex-flat mate), seizure-ish 2x 26th. Oct 18th 17:50 (going on to busy street) & 20:15 (emotional music that could reach me). 19th: 11:00 table tennis. Sep 19th?? Aug 9th: 13:42 & 15:40 (after vertigo). Aug 1st: 4-5x seizure-ish. July 25th: seizure-ish 3-4x. July 17th: 18:30 19:55 after thunderstorm. July 7th seizure-ish 4x. Increase in May-June was stress, histamine, and less GABA: Jun 23rd: 11:30 12:15 14:00 15:06, 2 before, 2 after antihistamine, maybe from the confused night, taking sleep meds too late and more?? Jun 16th 20:05, June 6th 13:45 & 14:35. May 25th 17:40 & 21:00, maybe from higher histamine and not enough GABA lately, May 14th 9:00 and May 13th 20:00 from stress I think, but I have also reduced the night time GABA praps too much. Apr 16th 13:25, Apr 15th 22:00 (GABA too late plus cold type symptoms = histamine), Mar 31st 19:00 (too little GABA, too strenuous meeting), Jan 15th 10:40 (from a pee urge, only 2nd “wave”). Jan 14th 23:58 (no trigger, praps missing out on .6g GABA Friday). Jan 5th (after being scolded for being hyper). Dec 11th: 1x. Nov 21st: 2x.
Last esophagus blocks: Oct 21st 2023. Sep 30th, (25th,) 16th, 11th. Aug 31st, 26th & 8th, July 23rd & 16th, May 31st, Apr 4th. Deleted further details on/from Dec 30th 2023, cos last block worth counting on Oct 21st. Mindfulness, care, stop eating whenever there’s the slightest esophagus pressure.
SELF-TREATMENT & SUPPS optimal, stable, but necessary (Jan 16th: Less magnolia bark and pine bark cos of possible vertigo side effect. No ellagic acid (not convinced of use) or feverfew (serotonin and dizziness as possible side effect). Jan 16th: LDN 3mg. Jan 10th: ~29 supps + LDN (was 40) costs ~400€/m (was 350€/m) +20€/m cps. Last changes see before Aug 22nd.)
SELF-PHYSIO: Always OK, see before Aug 22nd what I now always do when needed. Jaw-joint end of Sept. Nov: salivating technique(s) for dry mouth:
Supps Jan 10th: 29 supps + LDN cost 400€/m (was 395€/m) +20€/m cps. Try creatine again when LDN is plateauing, if not the monohydrate then the malate form. 16th: no feverfew (reduces serotonin, possible dizziness), less magnolia bark and pine bark (cos of possible dizziness/vertigo). 10th: no ellagic acid (not convinced of use). Dec 22nd/23rd: stopping ginkgo caused hearing/tinnitus/balance problems for 15h. Apigenin for sleep seldom. Dec 19th/20th: DAO working for walnuts, but only 10% (on 13th) for baked beans. No B2 lately. Nattokinase Nov 4th- : 1x0.1g, from 15th 2x0.1g. Oct 16th: Silymarin 2x.5g now, LDN Oct 1st- 0.25mg, 9th- 1.25mg, 16th- 0.25mg, 20th 0.5mg, Nov 1st- (1+1)x0.5mg, 10th- 2x0.5 and 1x0.5mg, 17th- 2x0.5, 19th- 1x1.5mg, Dec 11th 1x2mg, 27th 2.25mg, 10th 2.5mg, 16th 3mg. Deleted details Dec 30th: Stopped eleuthero, cos of BP. NADH. Theanine 2x0.1g since about Sept. Last changes see before Aug 22nd. Probably not colostrum or ATP again. For details on the lists, with dosing batches by times and tubs see before Aug 22nd:
No ‘research’ today
Quality of life: 90%
Lessons in self-care:
a) Wife asked me why I’m stretching backwards left whilst cycling, whether something’s hurting - that made me realize I couldn’t tell her where exactly it had hurt, because I immediately looked for a relief stretch and it was gone, but I repeated the stretch (to and fro) a bit, to make sure I’d got it.
b) Getting up from the restaurant my friend helped me get to the door and my bike, before going back in to our wives, cos I was shaky, stumbling and confused, that was nice, de-stressing.
Reasons to be cheerful:
a)-d) Plant, bird & animal life:
b) Birds: Woke up to beautiful robin song. (Magpie.)
c) Animals: Harley even heavier, still wanting tons of mush plus eating normally too, or at least trying too.
e) Human life: (TT laughter. Skip-Bo.)
ea) Got lots of work done.
eb) Enjoyed talking with friend(s), incl. about garden and how to cope with nightmares, he then asked about one of his, standing in a grave and the earth around crumbling in and squashing him, with quicksand under, and we came up with re-imaging it (see my answer to @SaraZ553) as as just water, like in a swimming pool (me), a ball pit, and then a swimming pool chute taking him to a safe place. And praciticing this He was so pleased about this that he joked what my fees are.
ec) Enjoyed looking at and smelling the food and the wood fire in the Portuguese restaurant.
f) Environment: (Outdoors.) Wind nice (if risky).
g) Body: (Energy.)
Foggies: When I came home after the restaurant I fried eggs, but lots went wrong: I forgot to put olive oil in first (put in after, which doesn’t work too well), the eggs broke too easily and made a bit of a mess (I trampled thru, so had to clean half the kitchen), I left the heat on too long (so the pot I used will be a strain to get clean, something I usually avoid like the pest.)
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