I am really starting to question my sanity and I do not know what to do.. I am losing my grasp on reality, I feel like I cant function in society anymore like the walls are closing in on me. I dont know what to do. I have to work. I go to, at work I feel like everyone is starting at me and talking about me. Like they see me every flaw like they know that I am a fake, I should not be here I should be in a padded room somewhere. They dont talk to me anymore, people that used to be my friends look at me crazy when I say hi, like why am I talking to them like I have some strange disease. I need to get a grip. I need to stop caring. I need to come and do my job. I need to get healthy physically and mentally. I need to work too. I have been crying all day and I dont know how to stop this paranoia I just need help and I dont know how with out humiliating myself and turning my life upside down
squeakers, have you talked to your Doctor? I think this is where you need to start, my friend, they should know where to go with this, as far as a med or someone to talk to. These illnesses can do all kinds of things to us!
I am too scared
squeakers talk to your doctor. Don't be scared remember we may not be right beside you but we will be thinking of you so you are not alone.
How are your Doctors going to help you if you don't tell them, squeaks. Everyone wants you to have the very best life possible. Wouldn't you feel better if you could beat this?
Hello squeakers,
When I was working I eventually felt like you do, this was before fibro hit me, when I had my breakdown, like you I felt everyone was looking and talking about me, judging me as a nurse and my room suddenly felt so closed in and small, never used to feel like that, I was in a "bubble" life was going on around me but I couldn't seem to get out to it.
I talked to my GP, said I was no good to myself or anyone else, she didn't agree, she knew me well, but I was not in the real world at the time, I too asked to be "put in a room, all alone, away from everyone and everything"
She didn't do that!! But she did get a Psychiatrist and a Specialist Mental Health Nurse to talk to me, I saw these people regularly for weeks for "talking therapy" plus some medication, which eventually helped and I'm still on it.
All I can say to you is, I know! But TALK, please, I didn't realise it at the time but it really did help.
I should've gone much earlier, please don't leave it too long before you see someone, asking for help is not a weakness, it is a definite strength, something a lot of us need to recognise and accept.
Please talk, no more nagging!!
Special Love,
Lucy xx
I talked to her and she asked me if I wanted a hospital evaluation... That is the last thing that I need or want. I am not going to one of those horrible places. They do not help at all. The way we treat people with mental health issued is this country is insane. We treat someone who is having a breakdown the same way we treat someone who has committed crimes and then pleads insanity. I had a hospital evaluation once when I was feeling this way they locked me up for 72 hours in this horrible scary place and it just made me scared to ever ask for help again.
I am sorry you had a bad experience before. Did he say anything about seeing some one out patient maybe that would work better for you. I hope you can find some peace soon I will be thinking of you
I see my therapist on Tuesday, my boss has agreed to a flex schedule. I am going to see if there is some weekly intense therapy I can go to.. I am going to see about going back on effexor too since it is the only med that has ever worked for me.
Sounds like you are working this out, I'm glad. I value you as a friend, and want you to be as well and as happy as possible.