2024-05-20 Monday
Summary:
- LDN May 20th- 3.5mg (Mar 21st-May 19th 3mg)
for Energy “30%” , partly usable = 20% (
), energy profile “slow”, TT “3:1”, cos I got lax (), jackknives , walking / cycling 25’ (). - Creatine monohydrate Apr 9th- 2x5g for more slow energy.
- Triggers: 100g baked beans OK, bites playing up at night.
- QCS at :00
Thoughts 1: „All my life is cheerful except.…“ etc. {certain moments}. Even by conditions with the suffering they cause OTOH are OTO R2bC, they are both, they are not black or white, we can make things black or white. Everything has many facets to it and to a certain extent we are the blacksmith of our happiness as Germans say (Glückes Schmied).
Thoughts 2: One prompt for these are cos someone at church had asked back how I came to my attitude.
Thoughts 3: It’s the end of the anaesthetic flare that’s allowing me to reflect more about my situation / development. Always good to use those times before the start of the next flare. These may well come due to various events coming up in the next 2 months, work, doc and health officer appointments and also the next tooth fillings without anaesthetic. Last year May was the start of a long dangerous triggering period, it’s time of the year. But I’m not scared or even wary of these things happening, I just know they are a possibility and that I can do a bit more in the period before them, but also it’s good to prepare myself for the next one. - Thoughts 4: Magpie - Everything is Black and White
- Feelings:
- Cheer: 8:38 Grey Heron flying down our street. Grasses seeding beautifully. First blue fairy bellflower. Magpie sounds. Canada geese pair. 3x song thrush. Stroking goats. Nice talks & interactions.
- Watch this: I’m not at all sure I took GABA A2+A3 Sunday evening, so might be seizure-prone. (And did get a slight one on Tuesday after table tennis.)
Fly on velvet - woolly honey grass.
(The favourite type of grass in my garden atm. Wish I could already identify the fly. I’ve only just discovered the yellow spots at the bottom middle of the pic, wonder what they are, I’ll try to find them tomorrow - = Friday - again.)
Red roses branching over pathway (A bit of kitsch offsets all the wildness. Need to do another one with the small flagstones on it.)
Single elderberry flowers fallen into wet grass, with honeysuckle leaves
(I first thought it was a new kind of flower. I love fallen petals. And grass. And raindrops. The small honeysuckle is a side shoot off a bigger one behind the red roses.)
Onion of Persia ‘Purple Rain’ close-up
Kitsch my neighbour b(r)ought for me, I like looking at things from all perspectives.
2 Canada geese in synchronicity
We had a Canada and grey goose pair a few months ago on our lake, but seems each has found a closer partner after all, just these haven’t got goslings yet.
2 Nanny Goats Gruff can’t get enough -
(all hands full to keep 2 women satisfied, as my wife joked)
2 mallard ducklings a-beak-playing, one watching them
(my wife pointed their playing out for me to film, lovely to watch their interaction on the video)
LDN: May 20th- 3.5mg (Mar 21st-May 19th 3mg), click for effects/dosage...)
10th- 2.75mg, 9th 3mg, 8th ?2mg, 6th-7th 2.625mg, Feb 8th-Mar 5th 2.25mg better than 3mg. (Slowly up from Oct 1st ~0.07mg.
Walnuts, all apple sorts, larger portions of baked beans, I think that’s all LDN.
Forgetting Dec 23rd caused big energy dip immediately, so there’s no drug level, it works day to day. (It’s constantly and reliably improved mainly energy (from 10%), heaviness, walking (from 5’), fine motor skills, stiffness (from 70% down to 10%), recovery time, Ache, pains, sleep , possibly from Dec on drinking only 2L/d which is helping sleep, and possibly reducing histamine and/or tannin from walnuts , but not my paleness (yellow/white face, black eye rims and white lips) or listening ability/sense . Last side effect was wobbliness, listening problems and Ache on day (1 and) 2 of 2mg (Dec 12th), before that “hangover” on Oct 20th .) .)
Dosage: Oct 1st ~0.07mg evenings, 8th 14:20 0.125mg, 9th-15th 10:00 0.125mg. 16th -19th 10:00 0.25mg. 20th-31st 0.5mg, 1st- 2x0.5mg, 10th (2+1)x0.5. 16th (1+1), 17th 2x0.5, 19th 1x1.5, Dec 11th 1x2, Dec 27th 1x2.25mg, Jan 10th 1x2.5mg, 16th 1x3mg. Feb 5th 1x1.5mg, Feb 8th 1.5+0.75=2.25mg. Mar 6th-7th 2.625mg, Mar 8th 2mg I think (2.75mg intended), Mar 9th 3mg, Mar 10th 2.75mg, Mar 21st- 3mg.
Additives: white capsules with TiO2 (HPMC with SiO2).
1) MAIN ISSUES: talking 30' ➔ 80%/3 (❌), music 5/20' ➔ 80%/3 (no nausea, strain less) (❌), white lips 70-80% (❌), TT 1:1, cos I got lax, after winning most points before we started counting, so probably 3:1 (moving 15%, talking 15%, counting 20%) (✅), moving ➔ 80%/3-4 (✅), jackknives ✅, SO post exertional malaise (❌), "post postural ache", "PPA" (✅), stiffness (✅), exhaustibility theoretically "70%" ✅ / actually "80%" (❌) and sleep 7h48 ✅ (vQvCS at 3:00, then immediately adding NSDR sent me off for 3h (bites was the problem, stomach ache, very dry throat) ✅, "PPA": 2 ✅). Energy profile: slow, with "5h rest", 3h very slow, 8h slow, 0h medium, 0h quick. Click for past months...
EXHAUSTIBILITY: Theoretically stably better from circadian rhythm, then LDN since Oct 1st - but moderate triggers bring it down to 10% for days to weeks.
SLEEP (click for tonight's details): 7h48, all deep ✅, stomach ache, very dry throat - QCS at 3:00, very quick very cold shower (first unnec due to LDN, but started up again in ?March praps when warmer, everything else OK ✅ (22 issues under control).
Sleep 23:25-7:55 4+20+13+5’, 0 deep doze. Sum: h35+7h55-42’ = 8h30-42’ = 7h48.
23:25- after sorting out book offer, and computer problem.
1:03 4‘ sore throat, bit of a bite itch on right arm
2:22- 3 bites playing up
-2:41 20‘ had to get my oils from the cellar. Very dry throat
3:02 dozed cos of bites, so QCS
3:14 bit stomach ache, almond milk, end of QvCS
3:15 adding NSDR
6:19 5‘ only caught a few minutes of the NSDR. Pee. Lavender oil. NSDR again.
7:34 awake from the bites, having pressed it. Dunno what could help, I’d prefer to sleep another hour.2
7:40 6‘ cold water on itch, ear plugs cos of street blackbird’s beautiful song, drank, sore throat dry
7:55 alarm, only dozing 15‘
2) Watching TRIGGERS, esp. of exhaustibility. Histamine foods: 100g of baked beans OK again, even tho this time only skimming half the tomato sauce off. Bites playing up at night. 20g goat cheese (✅), 0 specks of marmite. Strain: Dentist's local anaesthesia on Feb 15th triggered a severe flare until around Apr 28th ❌, next I'll need 3 tiny fillings, definitely without anaesthetic. Click for list Nov 7th 2022 to Feb 20th...."
(Nov) 7th 2022 caused MCAS / histamine problems like the first 2 till around July. Esp. ENERGY DOWN further to (10-)15-20% (max.), but more slow energy. Each jab -5%.
Made me stop cryotherapy/acupressure and acupuncture from Dec on!
2023:
(Jan) TCM recommendations for a few weeks took my appetite.
(Feb) ~3% of levothyroxine (T4) pill Feb 24th till Mar 23rd: more energy, but lost appetite and weight and sleep, antihistamine back up to 10mg to curb T4-insomnia & histaminey symptoms (stopped cos causing nauseous sinus headaches & painfully dry mouth).
(Mar) inkling of Covid, negative, but cough, appetite, night sweats…
(Apr) cancer checking ending with weird onco,
(May) 20th… 17 stress triggers, till end of May: 8-12%, seizures May-June every 10d.
(June) 21st: circadian rhythm Better to 18(-24)% a few days, but mostly back down to ~10%:
(July) 19th-24th: 3 garden bird deaths
(Aug) July 31st-7th uro exam and methylene blue trial. 9th… severe vertigo, check in clinic no result, so trying blood meds again. Hindsight: Painful uro exam on 7th, stiff neck from bird deaths, twist-stretching too much.
(Résumé) These triggers are “monthly” and kept bringing energy down from 20% to 10%.
(Sept) Histamine/MCAS symptoms (headaches 0%, tongue burning 10-20%, down. Further painful bladder exam injured (‘screaming’ 3d) & scarred me, caused UTI (2x3d). CoV-type infection (12th 10 days) (hantavirus??), work stress, abdomen pains, 24th-: listening to music painful, guinea pig, wife, CVD meds bad.
(Oct) (V)LDN helping a “lot”, Complex filling OK, CVD meds bad, BP low and slow OK.
(Nov) Atorvastatin difficult.
(Dec) Guinea pigs, atorvastatin, boss, often post postural Ache, DAO: baked beans tough, better with less sauce and more DAO, but walnuts OK without now. 28th: car trip to kids and and only 2x20’ bad for several days. NYE stress.
2024:
(Jan): (1st) DAO: 0x: 100g baked beans with reduced tomato sauce for 2nd meal caused tongue to burn a bit for half an hour, 3x: 150g for 3rd meal caused no burnt tongue or histamine reaction at all, despite the addition : Makes a difference! (2nd) Clearly severely woozy brain from talking during TT. (3rd) Are the seizures on Monday, pee and TT issues praps all caused by histamine from the baked beans, despite DAO preventing direct reactions, and that’s decreasing serotonin? 6th: Phone alarm music causing hurt from listening? (8th) Onco appt. better in evening, worse at night and next morning, OK by 10th. (11th) Contrast orally plus injected (doc thinks the excipients) caused a week of overall Ache, but energy and stiffness OK-ish, then (15th) fairly severe vertigo with walking problems and then 3h of vomiting, diarrhea the following day, but firm before and after, nausea and pain continuing till 18th, 7 days, then suddenly OK. Praps the oral one for gut, rather than the intravenous one (seemed not too bad in August), or praps cos too frequent/soon after the last. (25th) professional tooth cleaning.
(Feb) (3rd) stomach praps from apples & naltrexone, insomnia praps from naltrexone 3mg, pain praps from ezetimibe 3mg. Strain and sadness from guinea pig eating losing appetite and weight again, 7th better. (8th) LDN down to 2.25mg improved 4 issues, so increasing to 2.5, then 3mg was too much (cos next to GABA?). (15th) Dentist (cap-preparation) went well, but flare 17th-… from local anaesthetic (16th) temp cap fell of, (20th) got it put back on. (29th) Cap on.
(Apr 28th) Recovering from the anaesthetic after 10.5 weeks. Unsuccessfully re- trialling DAO (Apr 20th-) for vanilla and raspberry in yogurt (April 16th-24th) and marmite (e.g. 25th): only worked for sinuses, NOT for pee / dryness, sleep and possibly seizures (2 on Apr 22nd).
(3) DOCS: Click for latest (April 26th) details.)
GP (Apr 25th): Just update (cancer and bp OK), and asking about possible help with sick notes and disability.
CARDIO (Apr 26th): Heart OK, (Feb 2nd) Belly plaque still “25” OK, next with bloods. (Dec 11th) Rosuvastatin?
DERM (Mar 19th): wart (but tea trea oil helped) on genetic enlargement under toenail.
ONCO: #2 (Jan 8th/11th/18th 2024): nothing in bloods or contrast CT, believes it’ll be nothing docs can find, the week of reactions likely from some excipient(s). That finishes the cancer exclusion Odyssey since April 2023.
URO (Nov 8th) IPP/PD shockwave therapy? (Bladder exam July 31st and bloods Aug 7th followed the vertigo/BP attack on the 9th - so maybe contributing, altho Aug 8th I could play TT 5:1.
(CVD med effects: Click for latest (Mar 21st) & next changes, and details...)
Mar 21st: Horse stance 70’’ ➔ 164/107-90 ➔ 139/94-69 ➔ 136/87-70, each inside of 1’. Confirms stopping candesartan.
Mar 17th BP getting too low, so stopped candesartan.
Thought Mar 17th: If BP spikes were from MCAS flare after bladder exam (in the summer), why is it now not spiking after local anaesthetic flare (in the winter)?
Atorvastatin Dec 16th- 0mg and ezetimibe Feb 4th- 0mg - trying 1mg again once LDN is sorted. BP , despite only ~1mg.
CANDESARTAN (BLOOD PRESSURE): Even alone starting Oct 24th was dreadful, but spreading over the day in ~0.5mg specks from 31st on worked, up to 4mg (5) since Nov 6th, but checking RR 24th/25th too low, so down to 2mg from Dec 10th. Dec 17th: BP at night sitting down (SBP ~100), so 2mg is a good compromise . (Jan 28th) been taking <1mg lately. Mar 17th: 0 since a few days now, cos BP low now.
ATORVASTATIN (LIPIDS): Nov 13th 1mg/d, + caused severe fatigue/Ache, stopped 24th, re-started 27th with specks of the middle without the mantle excipients good, but 28th 1+1 and then 2mg too late caused insomnia, so earlier in the day, increasing quickly from 29th to Dec 2nd: 10mg+, un-mantled, with first only slight problems, but increasing week of 4th, so Dec 10th-13th 0mg, 14th 5mg later likely caused pain 20:00-23:00… Summary without coating: Dec 2nd-9th: 10mg+, 10th-13th 0mg, 14th-15th 5mg, 16th- 0mg). Further trials.
EZETIMIBE (LIPIDS): Feb 3rd: muscle pain praps from 3mg, so 4th- 0mg.
4) UNDER CONTROL ✅ (attention necessary (✅)): Trying 0.5mg of LDN more, so 3.5mg. I’m not at all sure I took GABA A2+A3 Sunday evening, so might be seizure-prone. (And: Did get a slight one "tomorrow" = Tuesday 21st, after table tennis.) Last seizure May 13th: 11 days without, last esophagus block May 7th: 7 months without. Carnitine Apr 14th-, EGCg Apr 13th-. Creatine Apr 9th- 2x5g, LDN May 20th- 3.5mg. Mar 21st-May 19th 3mg, Seizures slight, weekly & during TT from Mar 20th to Apr 2nd, then Apr 8th (3-4), Apr 22nd (2), May 2nd (1) 13th (1). Click for latest (May 13th) & next changes...
Latest: Seizures increased since Feb, and weekly since Mar 20th.
Reduced vit. C to 3x400mg, like Masterjohn recommends. Nux vomica D12 helping for nausea from music/talk, sleep and bladder not much. Also for sleep: Cocculus and acidum nitricum later. Supp costs ~400€.)
1) GI, pee, local pains (incl. jaw & bladder), weather, dry mouth and drinking well under control: So no details at the moment.
(2) Seizures and esp. esophagus blocks fairly under control - click for details. Last SEIZURES: 1-2x/m - May 13th (1) May 2nd (1) Apr 22nd (2) 8th (4), 2nd, Mar 28th, 20th & 2nd, Feb 19th & 14th & 3rd Jan 1st 2024. 2023: Dec 22nd & 2nd/3rd Nov 20th Nov 13th & 5th Oct (26th/27th Oct 18th/19th Sep 19th Aug 9th (vertigo day). July 17th. Last ESOPHAGUS BLOCKs May 7th. Oct 21st.)
Last focal seizures: Varying from 2-weekly (May-June, Oct-Dec, Feb-Apr: 11 / 5 / 12 / 18 / 8 / 5 / 6 / 14 / 10 / 11, so weekly mid-Feb and mid-Mar to mid-Apr, praps cos of creatine vs. GABA) to 4-weekly (before May, July-Sept, Jan). Increases from stress, histamine, and less GABA. May 13th (1: too little sleep) 2nd (1: after TT) Apr 22nd (2: after TT), 8th (4: errands, eating, TT, after meeting with kids on 7th) 2nd (1, TT) Mar 28th (1, TT) 20th (1, TT) 2nd (2) Feb 19th (1) Feb 14th (1) Feb 3rd (1) Jan 1st (3) Dec 22nd (?2, slight) Dec 2nd (1) & 3rd (1) Nov 20th (1) Nov 13th (1) 5th (1) Oct (26th-)27th (1) Oct 18th/19th (3). Sep 19th? (1). Aug 9th, vertigo day: (2). July 17th (2), 2 slight focal seizures about Dec 22nd? Dec 3rd (1) 13:00 during TT, after feeling a bit seizure-ish, and not able to win: GABA my main suspect, cos of less sleep breaks. Dec 2nd (1) after the dizziness of 15’ of concert or from too little GABA at night. Nov 20th (1) I think it was, after food fell off my spoon into a bowl… Nov 13th 20:30 slight cos of wind noise. Nov 5th very slightly seizure-ish at TT, then 20:50 (cos only 2x GABA at night, not compensated). Oct (26th-)27th 10:00 (seemingly seeing an ex-flat mate), seizure-ish 2x 26th. Oct 18th 17:50 (going on to busy street) & 20:15 (emotional music that could reach me). 19th: 11:00 table tennis. Sep 19th?? Aug 9th: 13:42 & 15:40 (after vertigo). Aug 1st: 4-5x seizure-ish. July 25th: seizure-ish 3-4x. July 17th: 18:30 19:55 after thunderstorm. July 7th seizure-ish 4x. Increase in May-June was stress, histamine, and less GABA: Jun 23rd: 11:30 12:15 14:00 15:06, 2 before, 2 after antihistamine, maybe from the confused night, taking sleep meds too late and more?? Jun 16th 20:05, June 6th 13:45 & 14:35. May 25th 17:40 & 21:00, maybe from higher histamine and not enough GABA lately, May 14th 9:00 and May 13th 20:00 from stress I think, but I have also reduced the night time GABA praps too much. Apr 16th 13:25, Apr 15th 22:00 (GABA too late plus cold type symptoms = histamine), Mar 31st 19:00 (too little GABA, too strenuous meeting), Jan 15th 10:40 (from a pee urge, only 2nd “wave”). Jan 14th 23:58 (no trigger, praps missing out on .6g GABA Friday). Jan 5th (after being scolded for being hyper). Dec 11th: 1x. Nov 21st: 2x.
Last esophagus blocks: May 7th 2024. Oct 21st 2023. Sep 30th, (25th,) 16th, 11th. Aug 31st, 26th & 8th, July 23rd & 16th, May 31st, Apr 4th. Deleted further details on/from Dec 30th 2023, cos last block worth counting on Oct 21st. Mindfulness, care, stop eating whenever there’s the slightest esophagus pressure.
SELF-TREATMENT & SUPPS optimal, stable, but necessary, Carnitine Apr 14th-, Apr 13th EGCg, Apr 9th- creatine 2x5g (Mar 19th- 2g in the morning), LDN May 20th- 3.5mg. Mar 21st-May 19th 3mg, (Jan 16th: Less magnolia bark and pine bark cos of possible vertigo side effect. No ellagic acid (not convinced of use) or feverfew (serotonin and dizziness as possible side effect). Jan 16th: LDN 3mg. Jan 10th: ~29 supps + LDN (was 40) costs ~400€/m (was 350€/m) +20€/m cps. Last changes see before Aug 22nd.)
SELF-PHYSIO: Always OK, see before Aug 22nd what I now always do when needed. Jaw-joint end of Sept. Nov: salivating technique(s) for dry mouth:
Supps: Carnitine Apr 14th-, EGCg Apr 13th-. LDN May 20th 3.5mg (Mar 21st-May 19th). 3mg, Mar 19th- creatine monohydrate 2g before morning meal. If monohydrate doesn't work, then the malate form. Jan 18th: Reduced vit. C to 3x400mg like Masterjohn suggests. Jan 10th: 29 supps + LDN cost 400€/m (was 395€/m) +20€/m cps. Try creatine again when LDN is plateauing, if not the monohydrate then the malate form. 16th: no feverfew (reduces serotonin, possible dizziness), less magnolia bark and pine bark (cos of possible dizziness/vertigo). 10th: no ellagic acid (not convinced of use). Dec 22nd/23rd: stopping ginkgo caused hearing/tinnitus/balance problems for 15h. Apigenin for sleep seldom. Dec 19th/20th: DAO working for walnuts, but only 10% (on 13th) for baked beans. No B2 lately. Nattokinase Nov 4th- : 1x0.1g, from 15th 2x0.1g. Oct 16th: Silymarin 2x.5g now, LDN Oct 1st- 0.25mg, 9th- 1.25mg, 16th- 0.25mg, 20th 0.5mg, Nov 1st- (1+1)x0.5mg, 10th- 2x0.5 and 1x0.5mg, 17th- 2x0.5, 19th- 1x1.5mg, Dec 11th 1x2mg, 27th 2.25mg, 10th 2.5mg, 16th 3mg. Deleted details Dec 30th: Stopped eleuthero, cos of BP. NADH. Theanine 2x0.1g since about Sept. Last changes see before Aug 22nd. Probably not colostrum or ATP again. For details on the lists, with dosing batches by times and tubs see before Aug 22nd:
No ‘research’ today
Quality of life: 92%
Lessons in self-care:
- 14:28 made sure to write a mail to a colleague cos of my work issue before midday, I’ll be improving it bit by bit, again before midday, before sending it some time, no rush.
- Losing 1 game of TT should have cost me (one-sided) a cappucino, but my (2nd) TT mate turned the one-sided one into a both-sided in the game after. The cappuccino does actually stress me a little bit, embarrassingly, cos of old social phobia type stuff, but I do detach pretty well from it. So what’s self-care about this? It’s my mate caring for himself and caring for me. Where I come into it is that the cappuccino wager stresses me. Not the money of course, it’s how to organize it, specially as we hardly meet. I spose I’d just have to bring him one to go from a local shop. I could talk with my wife how socially intelligent and nimble people - like her - would do this. She always knows that sort of stuff.
Reasons to be cheerful:
a)-d) Plant, bird & animal life:
a) Plants: (Newest blossoms)
- 10:46 now the grasses are seeding I can identify them at last. ryegrass, velvet grass, meadow grass (Weidelgrass, wolliges Honiggras, Rispengras). “Velvet” grass for #2 is nice, but I think I prefer the German “wooly honey grass”.
- 11:07 First blue fairy bellflower at the back of the garden, where it was hard to get anything to grow last year!
- 19:09 Love walking thru the paths in the lush grass. esp. Now I’ve learnt and got used to different lengths of grass being a good thing.
- Been looking up which native plants are best for the insects.
b) Birds:
(Every day cheer, song/calls/seen: Woodpigeons Robins Blackbird Sparrows Nuthatches sometimes Magpies Dunnocks back again Great&BlueTits always Jacks increasing Chaffinch yep Chiffchaff yep, esp. in neighbourhood Collared dove usually Blackcap not quite every day Swifts 12x Birds bathing 4x ) Latest / earliest robin song: …22:10 / 4:00… (10’ later/earlier since May 16th).
(Regular cheer, song/calls/seen: Wren Raven Crow Song thrush Above: Ducks? Heron? Peregrine? Grey goose?)
- 8:38 Grey Heron flying down our street!
- 11:07 Collared dove on roof next door, wooing and calling
- 11:07 Keep surprising birds by moving too fast out of the cellar entrance,
- 13:30 Magpie making cute sounds again, but Blackbird chased off, so not just cute… Everything is Black and White, everything is Magpie.
- 13:30 Very loud clear song from my Blackie again this morning, taping him sometimes
- 16:15 a pair of Canada geese without goslings in our smaller lake, and mallard ducks of course.
- 16:27 2+1 raven, lots of woodpigeons on the fields, 15 Highlanders, a Great Woodpecker.
- 18:53 magpie or more likely jay call.
- 19:00 heard song thrush again after a long time
- 19:09 GreatTit chicks in boxwood like the adults always, praps for the moth eggs
- 19:39 another song thrush whilst collecting grass for the guinea pigs
- 20:55 jacks are gathering on the antennae above our gardens a bit more in the evenings, this will increase till autumn.
- 22:00 last blackbirds, but mine 21:35 or 40. Robins not yet, but bats. 22:05 now my robin started, got the whole arena for himself 22:06 neighbour robin is chiming in
- 22:14 everyone quiet now, but my wife pointed out a song thrush still singing in the background, I think the one where I got the guinea pigs’ grass - always excited to hear one at home, which is only possible when all others are quiet, so very early and very late.
c) Animals: (guinea pig antics . Redbrown squirrel )
Bats every evening Bank voles always there, rustling or scuttling Insects: bees, bugs
When we visited the goats, I hesitantly started stroking the chief she-goat and then she taught me - by throwing my hand up - how/where she likes it, she loved lying her head in the palm of my hand and also “wrestling” - pressing towards each other. Once I’d put myself on the right side of her, I was allowed to stroke the other mothers and then the smaller ones too, she let them come.
e) Human life: (TT laughter Skip-Bo Wife Art Music listening Nice talks )
- 10:46 Enjoyed getting some housework done for my wife, in a good mood today.
- 15:53 Wife dropped my old laptop, it’s good she’s worried, so she doesn’t get angry,
- 15:53 Good laughs playing skip-bo cos my hidden rule not to use jokers if I am winning ended in me only having jokers which put me in a funny tight spot.
- 18:53 at TT a lot of philosophical talk about mindfulness, positive thinking, radical acceptance and how to enjoy losing.
- 18:53 many funny TT rallies to and fro, like where the ball just about reaches the table.
- 18:53 Cute to see a mum and 3 boys on the playground, 2 boys were preening each others hair, looking round I saw the older boy was doing the same with his mum, nice to see how loving and caring they seemed.
- Nice evening with wife
f) Environment: (Outdoors .) No rain, yearning for Wednesday.
- Love the smells in my garden too, whether stinky manure-y or rose-y
- Moon half coloured by clouds, bit of a halo: nice piece of creation art.
g) Body: (“Theoretical” energy 30% ().)
Foggies: (Body (). Brain ().)
18:56 brain getting foggy during talking and TT, whilst my body is totally OK, praps from adding the LDN – hope it won’t cause a problem tonight, or any other side effect.
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